This hurts. So. Bad. I’ve been sobbing the entire day. I’m so done. I have an exam tomorrow that I need to study for but I can’t focus on anything else rn. Heartbreak + OCD is one of the worst feelings ever.
Ohhh my gosh. I can't even imagine how you have been feeling. I am so, so, so sorry. OCD sucks SO MUCH, repeating/intensifying every thought, making everything more guilt-inducing than necessary too. Ugh. I am so sorry you have to experience this heartbreak right now. I'm sending you a virtual hug. ❤️🫂
I understand this as I’m going through this as well. Long term breakup bc my mental health was so poor. It’s very lonely, but I have my parents, son and dogs. Try to get outside and try to find some friends. I don’t have many friends so I come here to find people who relate. Good luck to you and hugs
I’m so sorry blazed!! I know this is hard but what helped me a lot was being surrounded by my loved ones even if you feel like being alone. Having someone there makes you feel so much better. It gets easier don’t give up. Time does eventually heal all wounds and one day this won’t hurt as much. Wish u the best! 💞💞💞🥰🥰🥰
I can say that it does get better. I mean you loved that person so your feelings are valid. If you need to let yourself cry just let it out. Some days I cry all day. Life is hard so try to give yourself some grace. You’ve got this.
i couldn't take this anymore. maybe i'll just let ocd win this time. it's too hard to not have a clear conscience everytime i'm with my bf cuz my mind is telling me i'm unfaithful and don't deserve to be happy. i feel like i'll never get better anymore. i already told myself many times to stop attracting attention from other people especially to people i'm having false attraction to. but i did it again yesterday, right after i smiled a little extra in front of that girl i might be attracted to i could feel the massive anxiety in my chest. already decided last week that i might be actually attracted to her so it's best to fully avoid her. i avoided her with the best i could, but we're in the same classroom and i saw her in my peripheral vision looking at us (my bf and i) whispered to myself not to make any mistake i'll regret, but then i felt like i lose control and laugh a little extra. i searched micro cheating and it says there "trying to impress someone you're attracted to" and now i want to break up with my bf. the guilt is too strong. i couldn't sleep at night.
I’ve shared on here before that I don’t have the best relationship with my parents but I still care for them a lot. I love them. This disorder has been so debilitating for the last 4 months. It keeps getting worse. It’s been attacking any physical contact with my parents. Any touches, hugs, playful jabs, caresses, anything. Anything that’s supposed to be pure and loving. My brain jumps to it being inappropriate, or weird or just comparing it to something sexual. Then I just feel so uncomfortable. I don’t know if I’m just hyperaware of how I feel, I tense up badly or if I’m checking how I feel. I don’t know. It breaks my heart. It genuinely hurts so bad. I feel like a child who just wants to cry in her parents’ arms but OCD is trying to take them away. This feels so painful, I’ve been dealing with so many themes but this specific situation hurts the most. I feel devastated and scared. If anyone else has been through this or has any advice, I’d really appreciate it. And if not, just knowing that someone heard me would mean a lot. I feel so deeply sad.
My mental health is declining due to ocd. It’s like a huge mix between ocd episode and depression wave. I feel weak and hopeless. I wanna cry. I’m exhausted . I feel like I’ve lost myself again.
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