- Username
- danocd
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Listen. That’s what anxiety is, a but what about this and what about that. You know deep down that you didn’t catch anything. So trust that feeling. I’m going through that right now but you have to stay strong and determined to get through those what if’s. When I was very scared of getting herpes I’d think, what if this little bump on my mouth is herpes or what if he has herpes and just doesn’t know. But really that’s just my brain worrying. And nothing more to it.
This reminds me a lot of what I went through. It will get better. I promise you that. It will take time for you to expose yourself to your fears. But it will get better
And that’s okay. Don’t fight them off. At some point they will usually go away on their own
I hope so. Thanks!
You can’t get hiv from saliva if I’m correct. You can comply get hiv from blood entering your system. I had something like that before. Talk to the girl and be honest, for anyone you meet. I’d want to know if they had anything becuase that determines whether or not I wanna be with them. I had an ocd problem with being deadly afraid of herpes. I did tons of research on it which helped me and I would expose myself to germs. I used to never open doors with my sleeves, but now I open up them with my hand to get used to the germs becuase being a germaphobe isn’t healthy. It can be very exhausting. I don’t share drinks with people or food, and that’ll stick with me forever until maybe I have kids. Idk but for now I’m sticking with not sharing things with anyone becuase it makes me feel more secure and less scared. Establish boundaries with your partner so they understand what it is you genuinely don’t like. I told my partner that sharing a drink with another person who is just a friend is like cheating to me, not actually but it’s like cheating to my germaphobia. Hope this helps. It’ll get easier don’t worry.
Thank you very much. I know i cant get hiv from saliva but maybe she had an open cut as well or I did something to her or maybe bleeding gums. That is the thought that scares me... I hope I forget it eventually and I didn't catch the disease... I don't really know, I know that the amount of blood to get the disease is pretty big and I didn't saw that amount of blood while kissing her (I also checked her gums and lips) but damn I'm scared. Thank you very much!
Thank you very much. I'll try to expose myself I'd love more advise can give me some. Thanks!!!
Okay my advice 1. Expose yourself to your fears (ex, open up doors, with your hands, try do something without immediately putting on hand sanitizer 2. Establish boundaries (ex. Establish things that you just will not do, in my case I don’t share drinks with anyone or food except for with my partner and I also try to stay away from someone who just coughed
Thank you. Ill try to do as you say and I hope I didn't catch hiv from this girl... lets see what happens cause deep down I'm not sure of anything... thanks!
The uncertainty is what makes me anxious and I'm just hoping and praying that her blood didn't get into my mouth in any moment and if I did it wasnt enough to catch the virus... I will try to hold onto that though and try to calm down.. I didn't saw her blood but I'm really scared that it was there... because of that I checked her mouth like a freak and I'm still scared and I'll be for weeks... I'm hating myself for the decision of kissing her and the though of catching hiv from kissing her... but meh, I've to live with this obsession I guess... so let's see what happens and let's hope I didn't caught the virus. Thank you for listening, helping and sharing! Thanks!!!!!
I’m sorry you’re going through this. I have been through this several times though not for many years now. I wouldn’t wish this type of OCD on my worst enemy and I hope it passes for you soon. You are not alone. OCD triggered by a fear of AIDS/HIV is a very common thing.
Have you felt any symptoms of hiv? You may feel reassured if none of those symptoms occur to you or if you really want to, go get tested. Has the girl you kissed had prior partners who’ve carried hiv?
Not yet but I may have. I have to wait around 3 months from exposure to get tested... none of the partners that I've kissed carried the disease (that I do know and i hope they dont)
Okay for now focus on living in the moment whenever you get that though don’t go to searching up symptoms or how you feel just focus on the breathing and living. It’ll get better
Thank you! I usually try that but the thoughts won't stop coming..
My OCD fear of herpes constantly makes me think my mouth has touched random left behind drinks from stores, lipstick testers, one time I even thought maybe I kissed a homeless man. It makes it so much harder to fight when I could just clean to alleviate some degree of stress. : ( I don't want to accept the risk when I feel like there's something I could have done to prevent it (clean enough) I don't think I could live with the guilt if I infected others.
Hello Everyone! I could really use some support, or perhaps advice with how to deal with this! 3 nights ago, I was at a house party and a girl offered me her e-cigarette. I rarely smoke except for a select few occasions, but decided to take her up on it. I noticed a small red bump on her lip, and politely asked if she gets cold sores. My OCD revolves around contamination and a fear of illnesses, and I also wanted to be a bit safe. She replied with a no. Later that night, she explains to me that she LIED and didn’t think it was a big deal. I met this girl through a family friend and presumed I could trust her. We even both shared something in common: OCD. She blatantly lied to me, knowing about my fears, because she hated the “stigma of oral herpes”. At my expense. At this point... I am enraged. This entire incident has me giving into my compulsions... I am terrified I have it, and I am terrified I could spread the infection to my genitals. I was wondering if any of you ever had a similar experience? Or have cold sores and have any tips on how to resist compulsions? Am I taking the contagiousness of the virus way out of proportion due to my OCD? Or is it generally pretty serious? Any advice or support would be greatly appreciated! I know the disease is common and nothing to be ashamed about! I would just love some advice from someone who may be going through something similar. Thanks!
I have really bad HIV OCD. I had a really low risk "hiv exposure" when I was a kid (16 or 17) with my high school boyfriend. This was 7 years ago and I've taken 2 BioSURE HIV tests since then and both were negative, but I just cannot accept it. Anytime anyone I know gets ill I think it's because I've passed on hiv to them somehow, and it's worse with my brother as we used to rough and tumble all the time as kids/teens. I'm back in that place where everything feels dark and I'm riddled with guilt and anxiety.
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