I’m at a new location. Too much of trying to follow the rules is getting to me. What I think is my exceptional manners isn’t winning me any favour either tbh. It’s just wearing me out. I move on in one week. The hostel has this lovely dipping pool in the stream though. You can see the bottom.
With regard to trying to make your personality whiter than white. I heard a lady in a meditation saying it is like trying to clean your shadow. You can scrub as hard as you like but it will always be black. She said something about it being because it lacks substance which made sense at the time to me but I don’t know how to relate that here.
The view is something I need right now. That saying about trying to clean your shadow is nice. I'm gonna steal that for my book 😁 glad to see you're still travelling. Maybe get out of your head and into your body? Go for a long walk?
@Wolfram I’m going to stop trying for a while. If I catch myself making an effort I shall stop immediately lol.
@NotSoNewb82 Fair enough. Sometimes a quick respite is enough to reset us
@Wolfram I walk around the world like I’m the inspector lol.
@NotSoNewb82 😂😂 Made me laugh out loud with that one
@Wolfram How have you been? I haven’t seen you here for a while.
@NotSoNewb82 Been eliminating distractions and uncovered how much damage my ocd has caused. I probably don't even know the full extent of it. It was stressful beyond measure but I'm in the process of unfucking my life. Its just going to take time. I'll be more active once it's all better. How about you?
@Wolfram Same. Just finding ways OCD has been destroying me unnoticed for years. I do my best though, you know.
@NotSoNewb82 It's difficult to face sometimes and I want to hide away with my habitual distractions. Every time I peel back a layer, there's another underneath I need to deal with. 2024 was supposed to be the year I find out who I want to become but I feel as if it's now the year I unfuck myself. It is what is is, and progress is progress even if its not what you initially envisioned. 🤷♂️
@Wolfram I’m going on a walk to what is called Shiva Temple later on. I don’t know what it will look like but I’m going. I’ll post a couple of pics. I feel guilty for posting travel stuff and not OCD stuff (because OCD lol). I remind myself that this is recovery. I document everything in words and photos in my journal abd this is just an extension.
@Wolfram Hmm yes. Stuff in your imagination rarely happens but then real life is an improvement sometimes. Take time to have fun.
@NotSoNewb82 I'd love to see the pictures. I used to have a dog called shiva
@Wolfram The trip is cancelled lol. It is for the better maybe. I’m very worn out.
@NotSoNewb82 Everything has a silver lining if you know how to frame it. Get some rest
@Wolfram I’ll be honest I’ve been in India since July and I’ve been scammed every day and had attempted scams all day long. I got invited to a tiger sanctuary 300km away by two men for one night and I had other similar suggestions. Travellers aren’t any better. They have bad attitudes and think they are better than everyone. There is a bully culture among them. I’m going to Mauritius as soon as I can.
Lovely view!
@Nica The water is drinkable.
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