NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

SZ for real…

I’m in the process of overturning a SZ diagnosis in favour of one of OCD. So they put me on escitalopram and reduced my dose of antipsychotic. For a while I’ve been getting really triggered by stuff and today I took a little extra antipsychotic and felt better. I mean I have an OCD dx now but it looks like I might have both. Every day I get new hope but things often just get worse. I’ve been having a lot of days where every little thing goes wrong. I’m tired.

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

I don’t know why God put me here. There was stuff I wanted to do and things got in the way big time. Then there are things that have come along and I’ve put too much effort in if anything abd still they seem to not be working out. I’ve tried to make the world a better place but let’s be honest just look at it. I’m not Job I’m sure of that, so what is his purpose for me? I don’t like people much they cause me pain.

AnonymousJoker

Date posted: 1y

@NotSoNewb82 Hey would you like to join an Ocd group chat?

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@AnonymousJoker Where?

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@AnonymousJoker No. The people wouldn’t like me. They never do.

AnonymousJoker

Date posted: 1y

@NotSoNewb82 I also relate with you as well, as far as wanted to do things but having stuff get in the way, I have severe asthma along with health anxiety, OCD and anxiety in itself, the best I can make out of it is helping others like me and like you know that we aren’t alone

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@AnonymousJoker I’ll be fine without the group chat. I’m 41 abd it probably would be inappropriate.

AnonymousJoker

Date posted: 1y

@NotSoNewb82 I wouldn’t say that, you seem like a very relatable guy and if you every want to talk about anything that’s bothering you I would be glad to hear more about it, ik how isolating it Can feel and not long ago I thought I was just going crazy and was so mad that I couldn’t just be like other people who have no care in the world, but that was until I found this app and other sources of people dealing with the same things just like me that I that would never be possible

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@AnonymousJoker How old are you?

AnonymousJoker

Date posted: 1y

@NotSoNewb82 It’s and adult groupchat and everyone is welcome, if you ever change your mind just let me know, and I wish you the best, I understand how hard this journey is but you’re not alone in this<3

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@AnonymousJoker I had to do a meditation yesterday about someone who cared for me very deeply and there was no one. There is no one in my life that I know at all let alone well. There are just strangers now and they all see me as weird. However they see me they are definitely rude. I’m a second class citizen.

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@AnonymousJoker Where is your group chat?

AnonymousJoker

Date posted: 1y

@NotSoNewb82 I personally feel like no one is a second class citizen and we are all just different in are own way, for instance my brother was recently diagnosed with autism and other serious health issues and he himself thought that he was alone in this world and no one could understand him, and with time I saw him get slowly better, it hurts me when people say this because I really feel compassionate to people no matter what they’ve done or been through we all deserve to be loved by others

NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y

@AnonymousJoker Where is the gc?

AnonymousJoker

Date posted: 1y

@NotSoNewb82 It’s in Snapchat, but there’s other outlets such as Reddit that has an even more broader spectrum of people and it’s easier to narrow down a specific group of people and interest that may be able to help you as well

Anonymous

Date posted: 1y

Yes, I also feel like every day is a struggle. I battle with OCD every day and it's definitely interfering with my family life. My husband almost left me today because he can't take care of me anymore! I am also struggling with medication and feel like it doesn't really decrease my compulsions, unfortunately.

nae nae

Date posted: 24w

Afraid I won't recover

I'm going through a rough time. I used to think medication would brighten my world, but if anything, it's muted it. The physical anxiety is less, and I felt okay(ish) for a while, but things are getting bad again. I'm so afraid I'll never get to a point where I feel safe in my body and in my mind. Today is the first day I've cried in... I don't know how long. But I didn't feel the relief I thought I would. Initially, I did, but it morphed into dread, and now I'm sitting by myself, trying not to panic. I really want to begin seeing a therapist for OCD, but I don't know how much my insurance covers. There's just so much on my mind right now. A whole bunch of old themes are resurfacing. I wish I could've been given a different path in life. I'm trying to stay strong. It's just really difficult. I feel like I'm being sent back to square one :(

eb123456789

Date posted: 21w

Medication Symptom Management

This is kind of a weird question, but I recently increased my SSRI dosage and have experienced tremendous relief. It has quieted my intrusive thoughts so much and my compulsions are no longer as all-consuming. However, I don’t want to be on this high of a dosage forever and know that medication alone shouldn’t be my only fix. I’m seeing a new psychiatrist on Wednesday and am wondering if the recent decrease in frequency of my symptoms will be a bar to my getting ocd treatment? In other words, if in this present moment I’m doing better, but up until a few days ago my compulsions were taking up pretty much every moment of my waking day, will I still be classified as having ocd? I start getting worried when I feel better that I don’t actually have ocd and just use it as a defense mechanism to avoid consequences of my actions/I’m secretly a terrible person

nae nae

Date posted: 14w

Mini vent (sorta)!

I'm struggling with a lot of doubts today, but trying the best I can to keep on living my life 🥲 I'm on 150mg of Sertraline right now, and honestly, I'm feeling a lot better than before. Do I still get triggered? Yes! But I'm handling it easier. The only issue is, I feel like I'm obsessing over recovering? Not if I'm doing it "right," but more so getting to a point where I feel "perfect." That's not possible, I know. Even before OCD spiraled out of control, I struggled with other issues on a daily basis. But life felt simpler back then, and I didn't have this magical (and annoying) ability to remember every single bad thing that's ever happened to me or every single intrusive thought I've ever had in extreme detail 😭 Whenever I'm feeling okay, I can not help but think, "Remember how bad it was (insert time-frame)?" And then my mind zip zaps through every instance I've ever felt anxiety, like...? I don't even know if it's me doing this or if its OCD, but it frustrates me so, so much when it happens. Anyway, that's all for now... If anyone can relate, we're in this together 🤍 Hang in there!

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