Explore more posts

Username: Bluebells

Date posted: 35w ago

Help

I need some support from anyone who’s willing to offer it, please. My ocd, particularly scrupulosity, has been making my life a living hell. I can’t ignore my suspicions and compulsions and they rule my life. I’m debating whether or not the God I rely on even exists, and quite frankly I’ve been thinking about suicide. I don’t know how to tell my loved ones. I was in a position where I had to talk someone down from suicide at a young age and it crushed me afterwards. I know suicide is wrong, and I’m scared to think about it, but I don’t know how I can live. I just need someone to know.

Username: RAAM000001RAAM000001

Date posted: 35w ago

Honestly bluebells, it’s best if you seek professional help. If you have a local therapist in your community m, it helps. Or talk to your parents about it. Let it go. Lots of times letting things go that are in your mind really helps you and relax. Trust me… I have gone through this. Not the suicide part. I have Pocd and it’s honestly killing me, but I tell my mom and my brother. They always understand.

Username: Brooklyn#1Brooklyn#1

Date posted: 35w ago

I’m sending love and prayers, have you talked to your dr? Medicine help a lot. And therapy. They’re life changing. I’m hoping it gets better for you!

Username: Narobi02Narobi02

Date posted: 35w ago

Hi Bluebells. Just said a prayer for you! You are incredibly loved and you CAN make it thru this. I have been in a similar headspace where I didn't want to be here anymore - I didn't know how I was going to make it thru life like this. But I was just in the depths of fear and not reasoning well. I learned that just because I think something or feel something doesn't mean it's actually true and an accurate reflection of reality. What I thought I couldn't do, I actually could and did. I am praying for you! I think talking with a therapist is really going to help. Do you have one right now?

Username: Bluebells Bluebells

Date posted: 35w ago

@Narobi02 Thank you so much 😭

Username: AhsjdiviwajdjdjjcAhsjdiviwajd...

Date posted: 35w ago

Hey there! Just want to share with you that my parent committed suicide when I was a teen and it didn’t solve anything in fact in made my family dynamic worse and the pain was inflicted on me and my siblings along with many other family members. I do not blame my parent but I just want to let you know how badly it has affected me growing up. In my mid twenties now. There might be a mix of feelings coming up for you, but part of that could be fear. Fear that you won’t be able to cope or overcome this, but with the right help you absolutely can. Do you have access to a therapist at all?

Username: Bluebells Bluebells

Date posted: 35w ago

@Ahsjdiviwajdjdjjc I do not have access to therapy. Do you have any other ideas?

Username: AhsjdiviwajdjdjjcAhsjdiviwajd...

Date posted: 35w ago

@Bluebells My suggestion would be to start my grabbing a journal, write out everything that is bothering you. Basically dump your entire thought process on the page. Then get a new page, and write down moments in time where you feel like god showed up big. Maybe he saved you from a car accident or he provided food when you lacked finances, whatever small or big thing write that down. When you review those things maybe tou notice that God has got you through a lot and he will continue to do so. You don’t need to prove to yourself 100% that there’s a god that’s impossible and wrestling with those questions is very very normal especially if your struggling with ocd your more apt to question God. But maybe God put you here to help someone and through that you will find your true purpose and your trye reason for this life

Username: AhsjdiviwajdjdjjcAhsjdiviwajd...

Date posted: 35w ago

@Bluebells I’d also like to recommend brainmd GABA supplements. Specifically the brainmd ones because I go to amen clinics and they have their own scientists who create mental health supplements. They’re helpful for ocd. The GABA bottle is purple but please consult a doctor or take at your own risk because idk your current health status or anything about you

Username: AhsjdiviwajdjdjjcAhsjdiviwajd...

Date posted: 35w ago

@Bluebells Ultimately what I’m trying to help you do is shift perspective instead of trying to control the situation which is what many ocd people do. Instead of thinking: “I’m stuck with ocd I can’t get through this i don’t wanna be here” we want to shift to: “I am having a hard moment right now, my ocd is flaring up, and I’m struggling to cope. What can I do for myself right now to get through this?” Instead of thinking about your entire life, focus either on today or this hour or this second. There was a time in my life when I was struggling so bad that I focused on my life by the hour while I went through recovery. Because if I started to think of my life long term I felt an extreme sense of fear like no way I can deal with this. But yes you can deal with it, there are so many tools. What is your personal barrier with finding a therapist?

Username: Bluebells Bluebells

Date posted: 35w ago

@Ahsjdiviwajdjdjjc Thank you, that strategy seems like a good one. I will try it. My barriers are money and time mostly

Username: Wolfram Wolfram

Date posted: 35w ago

Sorry you're going through this. Whats happening with the scrupolosity? I also stopped someone trying to kill themselves 10 years ago. What annoyed me was the amount of people that just stared. That and other things played on my mind for ages. I was undiagnosed at the time and didn't know I had moral scrupolosity

Username: Bluebells Bluebells

Date posted: 35w ago

@Wolfram I have religious scrupulosity and I can’t tell what God’s trying to tell me, if anything. I’m really sorry you had to go through that as well, you know as well as I do that even if you help it’s a crazy weight.

Username: Wolfram Wolfram

Date posted: 35w ago

@Bluebells I've not had religious scrupolosity before but used to feel like I saw signs from a higher power at points etc. I don't know what I believe in but signs or not, you've been given the tools to deal with your problems, you just need to learn what they are and how to use them. Sometimes you need help to do this and that's fine. Sometimes it's trial and error. Mistakes are a natural part of learning. I don't know I'd I missed the mark here 😬

Username: Wolfram Wolfram

Date posted: 35w ago

If i*

Username: Anastasia1

Date posted: 3y ago

I’m not suicidal and I don’t want to die, but I honestly feel like I can’t live like this anymore. I have every single theme of ocd and my life is a living hell. I can’t trust anyone in my life, not even family, I’m constantly paranoid and thinking they’re going to do something horrible. And then I feel like a horrible person for thinking that. I just need help.

"Pure" OCD

Username: halpmejeezus

Date posted: 2y ago

Magical thinking ocd religious ocd scrupulousity

I don’t know what to do anymore someone please talk to me so I’m know I’m not alone. My life is a nightmare my mental health is declining

Username: Nathanannon

Date posted: 1y ago

This is hell.

Ok sorry this is kinda a quick post just desperate for help. Any advice anyone who can provide some help or advice. I’m feeling pretty overwhelmed and suicidal at the moment so writing this isn’t easy, I’m struggling to find the words to describe how I’m feeling right now, so I’m just gonna lay it out as it is. Although I haven’t been formally diagnosed with ocd I have allot and I mean allot of the symptoms. My life and mental state is horrible and it’s hard. Ur I try and get get by with the good things in my life. Sorry I’m not here for a pity party or sob story. I know you all are better and have enough to worry about. Basically I had a friend who was 14 and I met when I was 17. We talked for a few months and while we where pretty chill out conversations sometimes involved more suggestive things. Talking as teenagers do. However as I was getting close to being 18 I knew I had to stop this out of morals and my own judgement. So I did. Or so I thought, I’m my opinion what i said here was wrong and my ocd if I even have it is telling me I’m a creep and some monster who deserves to die and suffer. Basically now I was at the time 18 we where playing Truth and dare. Classic party game for boring nights. And I asked what there best pickup line was. I responded to there’s with “aha that was funny” and moved on. I just feel the dare I said was sexual or inappropriate to ask them. And I feel horrible so horrible I can’t even begin to explain it. I feel hopeless and I’m slowly losing grip of myself. I don’t wanna seem like I’m begging or asking for reassurance but any semblance of hope would help. Or advice honestly I would be great full for both. Thank you for reading whoever you are and i hope ur day is going better than mine.

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

Help

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community