When I see other people living their life normally, being happy without OCD, I get jealous. I wonder what would take for us to be like this? because I was once like that, before ocd got me. I feel like crying. this is fr a nightmare.
I understand where you're coming from, and I used to think like this too. I think it's important to remember that regardless of how things appear, everyone is suffering in one way or another. There really is no such thing as a completely happy life. Of course not everyone meets the OCD diagnosis, but everyone experiences anxiety, depression, sadness, shame, and anger. Everyone ruminates over intrusive thoughts to some degree. Everyone has to deal with losing their youth, becoming sick, and ultimately facing death. Any person you see walking down the street may have just lost a love one due to a car accident, they may have an incurable disease, or they may drown themselves in booze every night because they are so ashamed of themselves. I'm not trying to be bleak or pessimistic here, and I'm not trying to invalidate your feelings (again, I know how you feel). The point is that the more we take things personally, the more we feel like we've been "singled out" and are somehow handicapped in comparison to others, the heavier things are going to feel. I guarantee that there are people who would look at any of us, without knowing our own personal struggles, and ask the same question: "I wonder what it would take for me to be like that?" I know this is really hard. At the same time, I believe the tools we learn as we understand OCD can make us better than normal. ❤️
^ I agree with Djflorio! Everyone is suffering and it’s universal. They might not know how hard your problems are but I can assure you that they have issues we don’t know either. It’s hard to compare life suffering because a lot of times we can’t. My OCD isn’t as bad as others I see on this forum, but I have Bipolar II which can make life feel like hell. But others OCD might be a type of suffering I can’t comprehend either. My point is don’t compare but understand this is your journey through life and theirs is theirs. Each life is different. I’m sorry for what you’re going through, but I dare to believe this difficulty can turn into something beautiful one day :)
I feel like that, too. Maybe not so much jealous, but just that my OCD has completely defeated me and keeps me from the things I enjoy doing like walking, working, spending time with family, and watching TV.
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good to know I’m not alone.
There's a song from stromae I love that really describes the feeling, basically says, "all that egotistic people with their obscene happiness"
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
Hello, I unknowingly have lived with ROCD or OCD (not sure what one. I’m new to this). It has ruined so many amazing romantic and platonic relationships and I am so sad that just now I am finding out what the hell is wrong with me. Maybe life would be different if I have known. My OCD and anxiety is at an all time high (ATH) due to some horrible events that have happened in the recent months. I am at the point where paranoia has taken over my life now. I had my first panic attack a few weeks ago where I fainted. My anxiety attacks are so extreme I go thought cognitive distortion that has lasted days. My girlfriend of 3 years is my emotional guardian and she no long has the energy to be that and honestly it’s not her responsibility to be that. She is bi and wanted to have an open relationship and for someone who has OCD this has not been good for me. She also was assaulted in my own home by a good friend of ours when I was out of town but it’s not a clear situation because it sounded consensual at first. I just left my very high paying job. I am financially secure but the job was emotionally abusive and looking back made my OCD worse. I am taking some time off to get my head right…but now, all I have to do during the day is live in my OCD. I’m very happy I finally figured out why I act the way I do but I don’t know if I can get better quick enough to save my relationship. I have never been so worried about myself (M 28 years old). I am a confident young professional and never thought I would be writing on a page like this. Anyway…I hope it gets better.
Does anyone else ever feel like they don’t feel “bad enough” to have OCD, or that they don’t feel “the right way” for it? Or like they’re just saying they have OCD as an excuse? Because i was so much better for like 3 weeks now and now im on my period and i started doubting again. So because of that im scared that i was feeling to good and that my fear is actually true.
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