Ocd is cray

Have you ever felt the need to hide knives because you’re scared someone might hurt you while you’re sleeping? Or have your thoughts ever tried to convince you that you have feelings for your family members? Maybe you feel like you need to tell your parents to “drive safe” every time they go somewhere, believing that it will prevent them from crashing, or that something bad will happen if you don’t. These are things I’ve experienced, but they didn’t last long, and because of that, I’m unsure if I actually have OCD, as these thoughts don’t happen frequently. I’m 17, so maybe it’s still developing, but I’m not sure. At one point, I even thought I might be a psychopath and would become a serial killer (i was analyzing my past and feelings but it went away quickly) When I was a kid, I was also scared I had a tumor and constantly needed reassurance from my parents that everything is okay, but it wasn’t as intense. Recently, I’ve been scared that ghosts would come or that a demon would possess me, or that if i open my eyes i will se my dead uncle (i was 16😂) which kept me from sleeping. Are these signs of OCD? Should I consider getting treatment? About three months ago, I had my first big obsession about possibly having OCD itself (i was scared of going crazy, of feeling like this forever, of not being perfect, of not having control), and now I’ve been struggling with HOCD for three months. But I’m scared that I don’t even have OCD, and that these thoughts might be true. It’s funny because just a few months ago, I was terrified of having OCD, but now I feel like I want to have it. I think a traumatic experience with weed might have made my OCD worse, but I’m not sure. What do you think? I also found out that my mom is also hiding knifes and that she was also obsession over sickness…

So at night I have these intrusive thoughts that I leave the door wide open. This causes me to fear that someone will walk in the house and harm my family. I also have this back massage device. I fear that if I leave it plugged in on accident a fire will happen. So I went down to make sure that it was not plugged in. The thing is that I never used the massager that day. When I went back up I felt like I opened the front door (an entrance to my house) even though I didn't. I had to get my wife to check the door other wise I would not have slept. When I checked it I became more insecure. This has been reoccurence with me.

i keep having this stupid ass checking or obsession, idk to grab a piece of metal and see if ill put it in the microwave and make it blow up or burn the house down or something and im getting so so fucking tired of this shit, ill explain the story how it happened (cause of one incident where i did give in to the checking to the point of putting a magnet in the microwave, hitting the timer but immeditaetly stopping it, then starting it again, stopping quickly, all while screaming at myself to stop cause im terrified what im doing, then my dad came to see what was wrong and when i showed the magnet, he gave me this look of...fear? dissapointment? like i am a danger, even heard him telling my mom later how they need to be careful with me or else i could burn down the house, thankfully my mom knows my ocd a decent amount and brushed off his fear and comforted me, but ever since that day) Now my brain loves to torture me with the idea im a one slip up away from burning the house down, so ill be grabbing metal and seeing if ill put it in the microwave, and thing is, because how scary it is, its hard for me to breath or be calm, all i can do is scream and eventually call my mom when i can get myself to finally speak to tell my alexa to call mom im so tired of this shit and i dont know how to approach it