NF. I didn't even know I had ocd until an old friend of mine introduced me to NF. He has Ocd and raps/ sings about his struggles. I just want to share some of his tracks that helped me. The search Leave me alone If you want love Time Happy Hope
THE SEARCH is my favorite song!!!
It's amazing and there's so many layers to his stuff. Even in the videos
Thanks for sharing š
Now following on Spotify.
Iāve heard all the old music I swear and Iām 41 so new music is hard for me. I do love people suggesting stuff though now and I also love the suggestions.
I know how it feels but I'm happy I'm open to new stuff because it might have taken a lot longer to figure out I had it and what help I'd need
@Wolfram Had ocd*
@Wolfram I used to have the time to sift through hours of listening to find the good stuff and I loved it. Now other people have to do the sifting lol. Thanks.
Very cool! I play music too! I listen to everything but I mostly write folky rock. Music is a great way to focus your OCD feelings. If I feel like I'm ruminating I can focus on playing music and it usually helps.
I've been considering song writing again, dusting off my bass and taking singing lessons once I get more cash flow. I used to enjoy it
@Wolfram You should totally go for it. Just write something! Every songwriters first songs are usually kind of rough. Mine were too. But you get better and learn little tricks to use in the future. I gave up on music for a while because my social anxiety got really bad and it was hard going places. When I was really down I wrote some songs that I thought I would never share but I did and some people say they really like them. Try to focus on saying what you need or want to say in a song and not what you think other people want to hear. It's easy with OCD to start second-guessing lyrics and how people might take them the wrong way but it's writing has been very empowering and helpful for me.
@Hippest Hobbit Some of my stuff in my teen years were so depressing and bad it was funny. I'm kind of writing a book on my ocd journey but symbolising in a fantasy setting as I don't want too many people knowing it's about me. I've imagined it as a movie trilogy , and if it was I'd want to write the music for it. Maybe I'll start there āŗļø
@Wolfram That's really cool! A lot of my music is still depressing but there are ways to do it and talk about mental health because a lot of people are going through what we are. They just might not know there are better ways to deal with it. Lots of people just hold in their mental health struggles and thats why I think talking about depression and mental health is important. I'm 30 so when I was young nobody really talked about mental health or emotions. Finally men are able to talk more about their feelings and I think more men are ready to have their feelings. I write about my depression and mental health because, while some people might not understand it, most people connect with it. They might not have OCD. But everyone knows what it's like to feel ashamed, afraid, lonely, and confused about life. You don't have to activaly write about OCD but just the feelings that come from it.
hi guys havenāt posted here in awhile but iāve fully recovered and have a really good life now lots of friends enjoying school and have a really loving boyfriend who helped me out of my ocd even if he didnāt know he was helping me (just through being loved and supported i felt happy enough to recover) hope u guys can recover too i had severe ocd and basically got better within 2 months by myself :)
Just wanted to give some hope to those who are having ocd spikes, spirals and worries. This past year I have regained my life back. I went from beginning to isolate myself, being convinced by my ocd that my hobbies are bad and that I should avoid things I enjoyed, and having constant panic attacks. With the work of IOP, psychiatry and nocd, I have made great strives towards my future. I now donāt avoid things and instead embrace my life and ANY possibility that may come. Donāt let the ocd bully you. Yes, I have intrusive thoughts still but I am able to go about my day instead of obsessing over them. You can find this too. I encourage anyone on the fence to please seek help if you are in a tough time, it can literally save your life.
In 2023, as I was finally getting sober from harder substances, I found myself in one of the scariest mental spaces I'd ever known. I was still smoking daily, my relationship was rocky, and one nightāit all hit me. It felt like I had slipped into a video game. Nothing felt realā¦ or maybe everything felt too real. The world around me was distorted. I had always dealt with anxiety, but this? This was something else. I was spiralingādrenched in guilt over everything I'd ever done, every person I thought I hurt, every wrong I tried to make right all at once. It was suffocating. At 23, I tried checking myself into a mental hospitalāsomething I hadnāt done since I was 17. I was desperate to understand what was happening. My relationship took a hit as I spilled every ounce of guilt I carried to my partner, unable to stop the cycle. It wasnāt just anxiety. It was OCD. And while the diagnosis was terrifying at first, it was also reassuring. I finally had a name for the storm inside me. I wasnāt alone. People I admireālike Jenna Ortegaādeal with this too. Itās not just me. Itās real, itās hard, but itās also something I can face. Since then, Iāve made big changes. I stopped smokingārealizing it only made the noise in my head louder. I started therapy. My partner didnāt understand at first, but as we both learned more about OCD together, we grew stronger. Weāre now engaged, and Iām happier than Iāve ever been. But now itās time to reconnectāwith myself. I want to find the me before everything. The creative, passionate, connected me. I want to start streaming games again and hopefully rebuild the following I lost. I want to connect with people againāI donāt have many friends left, but Iām determined to find my people again. Iām also diving back into my art. Journaling. Sketchingāeven when I donāt like it. Because itās the act of creating that heals, not just the end result. I wonāt let OCD run my life. I will prevail.
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