Woke up feeling bad again today. That rollercoaster is so hard. The thoughts are back, the low mood. I have a friend’s wedding today and I’m so scared I won’t be able to make it 😞😭
Try not to get stuck in the black and white thinking! Bad feelings are just that, feelings, which thankfully are temporary, don’t let them ruin the possibility of having even more great or even wonderful days! Healing is not a straight path, give yourself time and space to feel the lows, the discomfort, the ache, and when you’re ready, make the day yours!
@KarsynJ This is so hard. It’s really scary that maybe the feeling won’t go away. And I’ll always be like that. I have harm ocd so it throws me right to where my brain wants to be. Just Hard.
Don't focus on what you don't want to do, and don't want to think about. Acknowledge they are there and don't try and ignore them. Make a list quickly and do it, even if it's stuff like wash your face, clean your teeth, eat breakfast. Lots of small achievable goals even if it's just for this morning. Have that be your focus. Some upbeat music usually gets me going if I don't want to move
@Wolfram Yes I’m doing that and I’m working! But the feeling is very heavy. I’m scared the I want to act on my thoughts, and scared that things we want do not pass…
@confused writer You're overriding your faulty responses and fight or flight. You will be scared. Keep heading in the right direction. It gets worse before it gets better
I’m nervous about an upcoming gathering. I feel like I won’t be welcomed or only invited for the sake of the host being nice. I am afraid of what I will say or do, that others will pick up on my non verbal behaviors like I do with theirs (i.e. a shoulder shift, eye roll, texting each other while I’m right there etc.) and I’m afraid that I will ruin the vibes of the gathering by becoming paranoid. I don’t want my thoughts to spiral so bad that I need to leave and my fiancé is out of town so it’s not like I can escape. I don’t want to be there the whole time but also don’t want to seem rude by leaving early and keep thinking that if I leave early will be a topic of conversation for others there. It makes me want to curl up and hide in the house all weekend and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it for over a week now.
I was really anxious before I went to bed last night so I couldn't stop checking my phone because i kept getting scared i was gonna somehow use my phone while asleep and send people horrible messages. Then I managed to fall asleep but then i woke up really early in the morning and just couldn't get to sleep and my mind was racing. And then it somehow unearthed false memories from a few weeks ago. Then I had this thought that "I remember" and it just made me more anxious because I know I didn't do anything but my brain is trying to tell me that I remember. OCD makes no sense sometimes, but it's still scary all the same. I hope that everyone has a good day, or at least a better day than yesterday if you're having a rough time <3
I did SO well yesterday, but here I am struggling again.
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