Sometimes I just need reassurance

@saanabanaa Yes I knowwww but I’m not sure it’s only that… because I’m a little depressed too… I’m so scared

@confused writer I’m sorry to hear that :(. What subtype or topic do you usually seek reassurance for?

@saanabanaa Harm ocd 😭

@confused writer Not sure if this will help but check out the compulsion part of this article https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-is-harm-ocd-guide-to-ocd-subtype And have you tried therapy of any sort yet? If you’re feeling guilty about something it is most likely OCD. Especially if as soon as you confess the guilt goes away

@saanabanaa I’m in therapy. No guilt but the thoughts cause me massive distress

@confused writer I’m so sorry to hear that! I hope it gets better and if you ever want to talk about it I’m more than happy to!

@saanabanaa Thank you so much! I’d love to talk 🥹

@confused writer Whenever you have a distressing thought feel free to tell me! We can talk about what it can potentially be (ocd or not) :) Also make sure you are noting all these distressing thoughts out for your next session at therapy!

@saanabanaa How can I talk? Does this app has chat?

@confused writer I don’t think this app has a chat unfortunately. But I’m not sure 🥹

@confused writer Check this link out! It’s aimed at self harm ocd (and the different between actually wanting to versus ocd thoughts) https://adaa.org/learn-from-us/from-the-experts/blog-posts/consumer/differentiating-self-harm-ocd-suicidal-ideation

@saanabanaa I’m scared it will trigger me. Maybe when I’ll feel a bit better. Thank you! Rn telling myself that even if it’s real, it will pass

@confused writer That’s all good!!! Sorry I should have thought about that before!

@saanabanaa No no you are great. Thank you ❤️

@confused writer Hope you feel better soon!

@Wolfram That’s exactly it. I’m trying to understand how to deal with the thoughts and trying to understand if it’s ocd material

@confused writer Have you got an example?

@confused writer Trying to figure out if it's OCD is a good sign it's OCD lol

@Wolfram I have harm ocd towards myself. And most of the time I love my life very much. But I have those moments when I feel like killing myself (important to say that the therapist is aware and it’s been like this for 2 weeks). I’m constantly trying to understand if it’s ocd or a real depression thought. Anyway I’m very scared that I’ll act on it

@confused writer How do the thoughts/ feelings present themselves?

@Wolfram In massive distress. Thinking about it. How. Where. When. Making me thinking like I have to do it now. Urges. Visions in my head

@Wolfram I even have pain in my wrists from thinking about it 🤦🏻‍♀️

@confused writer So this probably a bit of depression and ocd. It's gonna be a pain as reassurance helps depression and hinders ocd. I'd focus on other solutions for depression and deal with the intrusive thoughts/ urges as ocd

@Wolfram I’m trying to tell myself that if I truly wanted to it wouldn’t be such a stress causing thought. But that’s reassurance. Do you understand what I’m saying ?

@confused writer That's a form of ruminating. Does the answer you give yourself offer lasting satisfaction?

@Wolfram Haha no 😂 LOL 🥵😭

@confused writer Then its ruminating 😅

@Wolfram Ruminating is an ocd thing? Never actually understood what it means And thank you so much

@confused writer It's not exclusively an ocd thing but you deal with it the same way

@confused writer https://youtu.be/CkcspsmLh9k?feature=shared This YouTube channel has a lot of good info, tips and tricks

@OCDwontownme Yes that’s part of what I’m working on in therapy. relying on myself.

@confused writer Good. Keep it up you're getting there!

@OCDwontownme Yes. I just don’t trust myself rn. That’s kind of the problem.

@confused writer It's a tough journey. I've been battling OCD for years now. Sometimes it's hard to trust myself too.

@OCDwontownme It’s so hard.

@ElevenB What do you mean by sh?

@confused writer Self harm. Maybe I misunderstood but I thought that was what you were talking about. Sorry of I was wrong.

@ElevenB That’s exactly what I’m dealing with. I’ll try it. Thanks.

@MadMatt I do that too. And if someone says it’s ocd I can’t believe them 😫