Could being pressurised to go to counselling/talk

Thanks for your reply and I'm so sorry for my late reply to this. So by being blacked out I mean I would normally fall asleep in a bar and have people carry me home and then when I woke up at home I had no idea how i got there Now I appreciate that this wasn't attractive or healthy but because I would only do this once every 2-3 months it didn't really effect my life too much. I also understand that I was probably getting this drunk because of some underlying issue but also because this is how a lot of people drink here in the UK so I guess I always thought it was normal Now because my mum started to come down hard on me when she would see me like this because a) she cares and b) she can be a bit overdramatic I gave in and started general talk therapy and this was really the start of my ocd problem because i told myself that 'okay I am going to be perfect now and a talk therapist is going to be able to tell me exactly why I do this and I will never have a problem of any kind ever again' I think I triggered an ocd response in myself just by expecting this much of myself and of my therapist

@Joe87 I'm in the UK too. I've seen this and yeh it does happen quite commonly. My gut instinct is saying with the context given is that this might not have been the cause. Do you think you had any compulsions or other ocd themes before this? I'm only asking to try and rule stuff out. Was there anything that your mother said that may have been particularly extreme or exaggerated to try and convince you to go? Also, another reason why I'm thinking this is because regular talk therapy doesn't just not work, it makes ocd worse with the amount of reassurance it offers and questions it prompts you to ask. I don't think this would've caused it but merely made something undiagnosed and unnoticed to be fueled to the point where it is now.

@Wolfram So the answer to your question is yes. There are various times from my childhood that I did certain things that probably were ocd and I just didn't know it as I didn't know what ocd was. 1 example is I used to regularly throw all of school books away and have to ask all of my teachers for new books every 3-4 weeks. I did this as I wanted all of my work to be perfect and just right and whilst for a couple of weeks I managed to produce what felt to me like 'perfect' work. Eventually my handwriting would become messy and I would start getting distracted in class again and so the cycle of throwing away my books would start over again Then when I was 14 there was undoubtedly a time that I had OCD because I developed quite a few compulsions to make everything feel okay although I still didn't know what it was so I just thought that I was weird and muddled through. From what I can remember this 'bout' of ocd lasted for around 6 months and somehow I managed to stop it. All I was left with was the need to rub my thumbs against my fingertips every so often throughout the day. This barely took up any of my time and didn't stop me from doing other things so I didn't let it concern me too much So I am now beginning to think that I have actually always had ocd or at least always had the potential for it and what I actually learned to do around the age of 14/15 was practice erp on myself without even knowing that erp was a thing What are your thoughts on this?

@Joe87 There may be a trigger that caused it. It might have something to do with not feeling perfect when younger or the need to be. Therapists can help with that. Just because becoming black out drunk is a norm in the UK, it doesn't mean its good. Some people with ocd turn to things like that to numb out the stress and is a form of avoidance. I think your mum is right and that you needed help. But I feel the thing she was concerned about is merely a symptom of a bigger issue, your ocd. Ocd is the main issue from what you've said.