I'm scared again that i have schizofrenia ;(

I’m experiencing the same theme, I used to struggle with pocd but my theme changed and was just wondering what’s your experience like with this theme

Pedophile ocd but ok :)

Yeah sounds like some of what I have and sometimes it just feels like I really am schizophrenic, I really try not to check the internet for information bcus then I get scared n try to check if that’s what I have but has anything helped you out with this theme like reducing the thoughts

My headaches started once this theme started too, pocd was easier to deal with as bad as it sounds

I also don’t really see a lot of people talking about this theme either so that scared me when I first started with this theme

I was surprised that this was even labeled as ocd bcus I never saw the signs I just thought I was insecure

What is pocd ? I'll write you in an hour abt my experienced (:

It's like I feel so anxious .like something is wrong with me and I feel derealisation like I'm in a movie during the day also I'm afraid of sounds. I can hear something really quiet and I don't know if its in my head or real sound (sometimes I go to check the sound to make sure it was real). When im alone at home in the evenings im afraid that ill start seeing something scary that is a hallucination or like something will poop out and scare me. I obsessively read abt all symptoms of schizofrenia in the internet and trying to make sure it has nothing to do with how I feell. But it helps for a really short time. I wish my theme could change ;(

I also have hypnogogic hallucinations sometimes .they seem very real it's like you can see sounds and sensations like the wall is furry when you wake up in the middle of the night and stuff like that.

I had pocd too . But it stopped when I became an auntie and then I had fear abt having hiv

No nothing helped me except trying to think positively and I tried erp today. That helped a bit .

I mean I reduced fear a bit but I still think about this theme

Have you ever gotten really bad headaches during this theme? I get them really badly sometimes idk if it’s like a common thing

Yeah . I have headaches and migrenes . Idk if it's connected

How old are u ?

I am 22 and you?

How long have you had this theme for?

26. I think my headaches started short time after my ocd has got worse

Have you tried getting any help?

I go to therapist. She said that I have to deal with my post traumatic stress disorder first and then we'll do a therapy for ocd . She said also that those thoughts mean something and sxhizofrenia doesnt start like that and we have to figure out what it means during therapy . But yeah I have to finish ptsd therapy first. I also go to a bioenergotherapist he's like a alternative doctor of everything and he also says that i don't have schizofrenia just low self esteem and I need to change the way I think about myself

How about you ? What's happening to you ? And do you go to therapy ?

no i just recently like a month ago diagnosed myself so I haven’t really had a professional opinion on it but it started with pocd but I’m sure I’ve had other ones just never realized it, I just recently called an ocd specialist but there’s a waiting list,so I’m not sure how long that would take

Do you wanna talk abt it on insta or whatsapp? (;

I read in the internet that schizofrenia is diagnosed only when symptoms last at least one month.what a relief !! I'll ask my therapist on Monday to confirm it

I mean like . You can get hallucinations one day or get3 paranoid for some period of time and it doesn't mean it's schizofrenia .

So how long are your symptoms for? I just started like 2 weeks ago so I’m not really sure if it’s actually ocd lol

Same. I felt relief for 5 minutes. My theme abt schizofrenia is like since 6 months.

But Idk I feel like I'm going crazy . What is the real fear behind the schizofrenia fear ? Idk but I'd like to know

Me too I also feel like I’m going crazy, my headaches make it worse too but does going to a therapist help you in anyway?

With ocd

But I had ocd even as a child.as a 7 year old I thought I'll go to hell for doing mistakes so I was doing good things as compulsions . Then it stopped and I had period with ocd when I was living with my ex bf. I thought I'm a serial killer and I might hurt my bf during sleep and I was checking if door is closed all the time. Then it stopped again for some time .now i have it since 2 years .During this2 years I was afraid I'm a pedofile, I had hiv theme, schizofrenia theme and lots of intrusive thoughts . That sucks probably I had also a rocd .

I go to fix my ptsd now . And after ptsd therapy I'll start ocd therapy . So I have to deal with ocd alone now

I mean I'm fixing currently ptsd and I'll start ocd therapy when ptsd is gone

Im a chaotic texter . Idk if you understand everything Xd lol

Yes I understand lol, I’ve also had rocd but I never really knew it was that until now I realized why I acted certain ways n then it turned into pocd and now the schizophrenia ocd but i don’t really know where this one came from bcus I’ve read that it’s supposed mean something or something like that lol

Idk what it can mean . When i was afraid I can have hiv it was triggered by the intrusive thought that said that my ex bf didn't love me so I must be hopless and after intercourse with some guy without condom intrusive thought were like : now you probably have hiv . Now no-one will ever love you with hiv.

I saw few people talking abt thus theme before . Like 3-4

I was surprised about hocd . Never heard about this before

I think it's low self esteem idk

Oh yeah I just remembered something. I had also theme abt having tourette syndrome

Yeah I’m not really sure if I know why my rocd started probably insecurities to go through what I went through in my past relationship

Does any of your symptoms interfere with your job?

Yes i was surprised abt ROCD too. I thought ocd is just checking and counting in the past and I thought it's just my insecure character.

Yeah . Sometimes googling symptoms steal my time at work . And I can't focus. And I'm too sensitive and can get irritated too quickly

I honestly try so hard not to google anything and just move on, I get too focused on it and try to look for those symptoms in myself so I just leave it but I do use my phone a lot as a distraction

That's good keep avoiding googling. Reading good books helps me too.

I think i might have some kind of rocd now as well. Im single but im flirting with one guy and i cant stop thinking if it works out or no and sometjmes when im overwhelmed by the thought that not neseserily it will work out i think its better to stop talking to him now so ill avoid dissapoitmsnt . Do you have thoughts like that too ? Or maybe its not rocd idk

Yes, something like that it’s kind of hard to explain my experience but I would get really overwhelmed not with the relationships but my own what if’s

I thought it was just my overthinking but maybe not, I just would really look for reassurance from him that it would work out or that he wouldn’t cheat but I trust him which was kind of confusing to me n I kept constantly getting worried that maybe he would be worried that I didn’t love him