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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Anyone triggered by P Diddys story?
I was ok and then did some erp with puff daddy story and it triggered me so much. It’s been on my mind all week
I was ok and then did some erp with puff daddy story and it triggered me so much. It’s been on my mind all week
I think any “Celebrity does bad thing” story triggers me nowadays. Yes I heard about him- and about any other gross story and it doesn’t get any better. I don’t think it even gets better for people without OCD- it’s inherently triggering topics. Though with OCD it feels like you are the one responsible as well for those actions- or feel the guilt that you might do the same actions. don’t feel bad for being triggered, you are not alone in this. Plenty of OCD and non-OCD people are on the same boat.
What triggered you about it? The gay stuff?
A little to be fair. I ended up watching a bunch of videos on YouTube. Nobody knows what's going on other than the people involved though. Even then, they may not know everything. I did a little self erp with it and kinda proud because years ago I'd react completely different and it didn't take effort to do so either. The reaction now just feels normal and next to zero stress. As long as you are doing the right thing, keep moving in that direction.
@Wolfram I feel the same w HarmOCD but with this story, it activated hocd 😬 and sexual intrusive thoughts
@68273 You've done erp for intrusive thoughts before? Is this a new theme too?
@Wolfram I’ve done erp. This is an old theme
@68273 I'd try and remember what to do and use this as a top-up erp exercise. Your choice though. Remember, erp is with a clear goal in mind. If you don't have one, you're just exposing yourself for no reason
hey, i'm really sorry to hear that your erp session with the puff daddy story has been so tough on you. it sounds like it's been a really challenging week, having that stuck on your mind. you're incredibly brave for going through erp, it's not easy. 💪 by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called "unstuck"? when i was in a similar spot, what really helped me was this free ai ocd therapy tool called "unstuck" (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my nocd therapist recommended. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers personalized, step-by-step support for moments exactly like this, when ocd thoughts feel overwhelming and stuck, just like an ocd therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3
I keep getting triggered by news stories related to my obsessive thoughts. I was feeling ok for a few days but now I'm spiralling again because of the news.
Hello, so I’m currently spiralling so so so bad and I want someone to help me and tell me what to do rn. I have dyslexia so there might be some misspelling 3 months ago I read a manga that triggered my POCD to start The manga was cute, I enjoyed it tbh, but it had pedophilic themes (idk why I continued on to read it?!) and in the end it got quite sexual. I was sick while reading it so sadly I don't have much memories. Anyways afterwards I read some comments about how this was smth only pedos like. And since then, intense POCD. Stopped eating, isolated nyself, tried to commit multiple of times and called 991 on myself too. I kept on going about and thinking if I wanted smth sexual to happen, I know I thought there would be a time jump. And thought that something sexual might have happened then. But I can't stop doubting myself or thinking "what if I liked it when it started to get sexual" and the memories of such feel so real that I can't ignore them. I've never ever enjoyed CP before, or manga with SA (honestly I don't enjoy smut much overall, but they're pretty common in romance mangas) but if it has sexual themes and the characters look like kids/are kids/a weird age gap ect. I drop it, but idk why I didn't drop this one. Then I realised that I had never been attracted to kids, and this scenario doesnt have to mean that I am a pedophile. I also have ALOT of trauma around pedophilia (CSA survivor, started making CP as a coping mechanism. It ruined my childhood and took loads of cptsd therapy to stop relapsing.) And I didn’t have a spiral for weeks, I did epr fully and thought I had finally figured out a way to ignore the intrusive thoughts. Nope lol, today I was insanely bored and decided to watch black mirror. “Shut up and dance” I knew that there was an episode that I had been warned about being triggering bht naive like I tend to be I watched it. And now I’m deeply spiralling again. I’m so tired T_T
Hi, last year I had a trigger with my little cousin that made me spiral. Then that thought lead to another and lead to another thought and another one and so on and I've been feeling stuck (with ups and downs) over a year now. I hit rock bottom in July/August and that lead me to going to the psychiatrist. I am taking meds now, but I still feel bad. It doesn't take as much time of my life anymore but it is constantly back there in my mind. It's the feeling that I'm ignoring and undoubtable truth that soonest or later will come out, or that rejecting, or that I'm resisting. That's why it's been impossible for me to do ERP, because I think it's going to make me want to touch myself and if I do I'll feel bad. And then it feels like I like the thoughts, not only physically (groinals) but mentally??? It's like a brain fog that I can't tag between pleasure or confusion. And that thought leads me to thinking about the alleged "non-offending" ps and if that could be me. And that thought leads me to think OH MY GOD I can't BELIEVE I am a girl in my twenties obsessing over this I can't believe this is my life.
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