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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Anyone triggered by P Diddys story?
I was ok and then did some erp with puff daddy story and it triggered me so much. It’s been on my mind all week
I was ok and then did some erp with puff daddy story and it triggered me so much. It’s been on my mind all week
I think any “Celebrity does bad thing” story triggers me nowadays. Yes I heard about him- and about any other gross story and it doesn’t get any better. I don’t think it even gets better for people without OCD- it’s inherently triggering topics. Though with OCD it feels like you are the one responsible as well for those actions- or feel the guilt that you might do the same actions. don’t feel bad for being triggered, you are not alone in this. Plenty of OCD and non-OCD people are on the same boat.
What triggered you about it? The gay stuff?
A little to be fair. I ended up watching a bunch of videos on YouTube. Nobody knows what's going on other than the people involved though. Even then, they may not know everything. I did a little self erp with it and kinda proud because years ago I'd react completely different and it didn't take effort to do so either. The reaction now just feels normal and next to zero stress. As long as you are doing the right thing, keep moving in that direction.
@Wolfram I feel the same w HarmOCD but with this story, it activated hocd 😬 and sexual intrusive thoughts
@68273 You've done erp for intrusive thoughts before? Is this a new theme too?
@Wolfram I’ve done erp. This is an old theme
@68273 I'd try and remember what to do and use this as a top-up erp exercise. Your choice though. Remember, erp is with a clear goal in mind. If you don't have one, you're just exposing yourself for no reason
hey, i'm really sorry to hear that your erp session with the puff daddy story has been so tough on you. it sounds like it's been a really challenging week, having that stuck on your mind. you're incredibly brave for going through erp, it's not easy. 💪 by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called "unstuck"? when i was in a similar spot, what really helped me was this free ai ocd therapy tool called "unstuck" (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my nocd therapist recommended. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers personalized, step-by-step support for moments exactly like this, when ocd thoughts feel overwhelming and stuck, just like an ocd therapist would. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3
I just started working on my first exposure today with my therapist after screening and creating the lists for several weeks now. We did an exposure together and now I feel 100x worse than I did coming in. I won’t go too into detail but it involved looking at a VERY gory image that had to do with my fear of natural disasters. I called my mom and talked with her and she was shocked and wondered how in the hell that would help me! I agree. Did any of y’all feel this way when you first started or is this just not the right kind of therapy for me?
My intrusive images were an absolute nightmare back in April. I honestly don’t even know how it got better, I had written a letter to God begging for help. Well recently idk if it’s because I’ve been stressed a lot again and ruminating on a lot of pocd related things from the past the make me worry, but the images have started again and even though they are repulsive and awful, I feel like I’m not reacting how I should. I think I just got to where I would just try to like blink it away and ignore it, but I feel so bad if I’m not feeling absolute shame and guilt. I feel like I feel too normal and sometimes I forget that if anyone knew besides people on here, I can’t imagine what people would think, but I also know it’s not who I am so I feel like I don’t worry as much as I should. Also, I can’t stop worrying about fanfiction I read when I was like 16 and 17. It really bothers me because I keep wondering did I imagine this one character my age? Why did I read this? Did I even know what aging up was then, and even if I did it’s wrong and gross anyway but if I didn’t age this character up then that’s awful. And i just can’t let go but I think it’s triggering me to have the images so idk what to do.
Does anyone else struggle with this? It's been the main thing powering my POCD, and it's only been getting worse. Especially when I see posts online of people sharing their personal stories relating to CSA, specifically grooming. It's so triggering now, but before this theme developed, the most I'd feel while reading posts like that would be disgust targeted towards people who did those things. Now, my first thought is, "What if I do something like that one day? What if I've done it before and I don't remember or didn't know I was doing it?" I have many, many different intrusive thoughts or worries related to this theme, but it all circles back to this specific fear that I'll become like the people who hurt and took advantage of me. Does anyone have advice for this? I'm not sure if I've asked a similar question in the past or not, but is this something I need to deal with separately before beginning ERP for OCD? I'm just curious and also lost on where to begin with all of this. I'm just glad I'm able to begin working through all of these issues now, rather than later in life when I'd probably have a lot more responsibilities. Anyways, any feedback is appreciated! 🤍
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