Mike05
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- 5y
starboiklemstarboiklem
- Date posted
- 5y
That's a question coming from ocd so i won't give you an answer and i hope you realize that you are looking for reasurance sorry bro
braxysmombraxysmom
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- 5y
You wouldn’t be ashamed if you were a pedophile. You are not your thoughts but how you feel when you observe them. So if they make you feel in distress you are not liking those thoughts. Sounds to me like POCD. Your thoughts stem from your conditioning dig and ask what these thoughts may be telling you. Past trauma? False beliefs? You wouldn’t fear being a pedophile or it wouldn’t cause you distress if you were one.
Mike05Mike05
- Date posted
- 5y
I understand @starboiklem I shouldn’t feed into my thoughts
Mike05Mike05
- Date posted
- 5y
@braxysmom I get what you’re saying so distress is good in a way .. when I say I’m scared of being a pedophile my mind says are you really scared maybe you’re not scared of it and I get calm then confused if I am or not it’s like back to square one
braxysmombraxysmom
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- 5y
Yes distress is good that’s you literally telling yourself NO I don’t like this.! Listen distress tells you something! Try and get your mind quiet it will bring you answers!! Like when water is turbulent you can’t see through it but when it’s clear it’s basically see through the human mind is the same way . Try meditation, just practice observing your thoughts and letting them go. Just let them pass. Detach. Why else would you be obsessing about it? It bothers you? Try and think if you were ever hurt as a child and see what could maybe be the bottom of these thoughts. It may be hard to face but it will free you.
Mike05Mike05
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- 5y
@braxysmom I’m scared if I let lose and meditate I’ll relieve ima pedo which idk if I am cause sometimes I confess to my thoughts to test myself if I want to be I’m just so lost ... plus I remember not being touch as a child so like why else would I have these thoughts if I wasn’t a victim that scares me too plus thank you so much for responding it means a lot
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