- Username
- Mike05
- Date posted
- 5y ago
That's a question coming from ocd so i won't give you an answer and i hope you realize that you are looking for reasurance sorry bro
You wouldn’t be ashamed if you were a pedophile. You are not your thoughts but how you feel when you observe them. So if they make you feel in distress you are not liking those thoughts. Sounds to me like POCD. Your thoughts stem from your conditioning dig and ask what these thoughts may be telling you. Past trauma? False beliefs? You wouldn’t fear being a pedophile or it wouldn’t cause you distress if you were one.
I understand @starboiklem I shouldn’t feed into my thoughts
@braxysmom I get what you’re saying so distress is good in a way .. when I say I’m scared of being a pedophile my mind says are you really scared maybe you’re not scared of it and I get calm then confused if I am or not it’s like back to square one
Yes distress is good that’s you literally telling yourself NO I don’t like this.! Listen distress tells you something! Try and get your mind quiet it will bring you answers!! Like when water is turbulent you can’t see through it but when it’s clear it’s basically see through the human mind is the same way . Try meditation, just practice observing your thoughts and letting them go. Just let them pass. Detach. Why else would you be obsessing about it? It bothers you? Try and think if you were ever hurt as a child and see what could maybe be the bottom of these thoughts. It may be hard to face but it will free you.
@braxysmom I’m scared if I let lose and meditate I’ll relieve ima pedo which idk if I am cause sometimes I confess to my thoughts to test myself if I want to be I’m just so lost ... plus I remember not being touch as a child so like why else would I have these thoughts if I wasn’t a victim that scares me too plus thank you so much for responding it means a lot
Can POCD make you feel like you don’t know why sexually abusing children is wrong, just that you’re afraid of becoming a child abuser for whatever reason? I’m constantly struggling to figure out why pedophilia doesn’t make me disgusted or angry enough. I feel like I’m actually a pedophile who doesn’t know it yet or is in denial. I know I shouldn’t ruminate but I feel like there’s some truth to the thing I’m constantly obsessing over.
So pedophile OCD... Im too ashamed to admit it to anyone. So I guess even this is a big step. But I do get intrusive sexual thoughts about kids. When I have been around kids I get thoughts like "what if actually did anything inappropriate". And if Im being sexual intrusive thoughts about pedophilia blasts me. So I stop and then I think what if this means I actually like kids. But what Ive been wondering, and its not meant to be reassurance seeking. I guess there isnt actually anything wrong with being a pedophile (they cant help it) as long as they never act on it. But isnt having thoughts about touching kids inappropriately, pedophilic in itself? Or is it literally just the definition of OCD? I kind of think that some thoughts shouldnt be possible to think unless its something to it.
i heard p*dos sometimes feel distress over their attraction towards children?? idk what to think anymore....
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