Hi! This is going to be long, I'm sorry! So, I wanted to ask something. Can rOCD bring up a whole new feeling almost convincing you that you don't love your partner anymore? See, the thing is that almost 6/5 years ago there was this guy who liked me, but I never really liked him back. I tried to because he was a good guy, but there was something that I just couldn't understand. I just didn't like him; I was not attracted nor interested in him, but as I said, I tried. We talked for a few months and sometimes I would find him attractive but nothing serious, so often I would just get this ugly feeling that I had to stop talking to him because I seriously didn't like him and I would just hurt him. So, various times I did, but then when I felt like maybe he was starting to become attracted towards any other girl I would feel jealous and I wanted him back so I would just talk to him again, and when I did, I felt like I didn't want him again and it continued like that for a few months (Now, I know this was wrong, I already apologized to him for all the damage I caused) but yeah that happened. The thing is that whenever I was with him or talked or just thought about him I would get this ugly feeling in my stomach that I can't describe. I just knew I didn't want to be with him. Sooo, this leads me to my current situation. A few weeks ago I got worried thinking what if now it is the same with my boyfriend? What if I dont want to be with him but if we break up and I see he likes another girl I get jealous and want him back? Then that would mean that I don't really love him, right? So, basically, Saturday night I was sitting in the couch when I suddenly got that same feeling. The exact same feeling that I don't love my boyfriend, and that I will have to break up with him. I felt so uncomfortable but I have been thinking, what if the only reason I feel uncomfortable is because I don't know how to break up? Because that happened to me with the other guy. I'm just so worried that it is the same because it feels SO real. I have been trying to recall if when my rOCD started I felt this way, because back then when I did not know about this I also felt horrible but I never left. And yesterday when I was with him, I hugged him and kissed him and told him I loved him because I didn't/don't want him to think I don't love him, so I did that even though it felt forced sometimes. However, I had a break down yesterday. I started to cry and I even started to hyperventilate (idk why) for a moment when I was with him and I just held his hand and felt so bad because I didn't feel anything for him. I just feel hopeless at this point because the feeling is so real and I hate it so much. I am scared to think this is not an rOCD thing anymore.