Does harm/serial killer thoughts actually go away?

Mine never completely went away, but they became rare. And when I do get them they usually don’t bother me much.

They may not go away. You just learn to not take them seriously and brush them off. I found some articles that provide some useful information and exposure ideas. http://www.ocdbaltimore.com/harm-ocd-part-two-the-revenge/

That makes me so so sad... how am I gonna live like this for the rest of my life with the thoughts still there... I wanna enjoy my life again so so so much.....

I wanna date , and enjoy my life and have no worries, I wanna get married but these thoughts are making it hard to believe as if I even have a future.

What if I think about them so much and my brain will get used to it and I End up listening to my serial killer thoughts.... I’m 20 and I can’t enjoy my life.... what do I do.

Here’s my story on the subject: I’ve never rebelled much. I’ve always been a goody-two-shoes. My way of “acting out” was watching movies mom didn’t want me to watch around the age of 13-14. I watched slasher films. This led to those types of thoughts. I was terrified of knives. Not dinner knives. Big, sharp, cooking knives. I was usually the last one to bed in the house, so I’d be the last one in the kitchen. The knives could absolutely NOT be the last thing I looked at before I turned the light off (and the switch was right next to them). I was so terrified of the thoughts they gave me that I wouldn’t even walk down any cooking utensil aisles at, say, Wal-mart. Cut to a scene of me at my best friend’s house. Her dad was like my very own we were so close, and he was a counselor. He said to me, “If you want to stab me... if you want to hurt me... go in the kitchen right now, get a knife, come back here and stab me with it. You practically live here. You know this house. You know where we keep the knives.” I remember this very vividly in their den. I didn’t budge from my seat. I simply said in a disgusted tone, “No.” To which he replied, “See? You CAN. But you’re not going to. Because you don’t actually WANT TO.” This sort of woke me up. L be able to to something doesn’t mean you want to or are going to. Cut to me going to a new psychologist shortly after... this was the first psychologist that ever actually helped me, and the one who introduced me to good ol’ Exposure-Response Prevention. We mapped out a plan. And I won’t lie, it was terrifying... at first. My mom was in on it. See, she did all the dishes. But my psychologist ordered her to NEVER wash those big butcher knives herself. She was to set them aside for ME to wash as often as possible. And so I did. I washed them. Night after night. Soon I found myself able to walk passed, or even down the aisles at the store without freaking out. I could turn the light off without avoiding looking at the knives or even noticing them in the first place. It completely took away the images that so froze me to my core with fear for so long. Now, almost twenty years later, whenever I think about that stuff... no fear. It doesn’t faze me at all. Because it’s not real. It’s just OCD. That was lengthy, but I hope it helps. You can do this. You’re a good person with immense value, and you WILL get through this. God bless you!

Oh, and I forgot to add... cutting those kind of movies out of my life was necessary. Obviously. They’re not good for you anyway.

Does harm OCD still bother you? Love u so much

@Naeun I never had harmful thoughts toward myself, but any I had toward others that stemmed from what I explained above... haven’t bothered me even once for twenty years since successfully finishing Exposure-Response Prevention therapy for it.