So I was recently diagnosed with ocd and I have always been told since I was little that I have ocd tendencies but I worry that I am not ocd enough. Like what if I don’t have enough like things to address. Sometimes I worry that I’m faking it but I can’t tell the difference between what’s fake and what real
I can’t speak for you, but for me Personally, I was so focused on the major theme that was terrorizing me that I couldn’t see all the other themes I have and all the other ways OCD was weaved into my life. I also doubted at first.
Also there is no such thing as being “a little OCD”. You have OCD or you do not.
I can relate, as I think many other OCD sufferers can, as it is quite common to at least sometimes doubt your diagnosis when you have OCD. It’s nothing to worry about. OCD varies in severity from person to person, and even across time for each person. You don’t need to be in the worst possible state in order to “qualify” for your diagnosis. You have OCD, whether you’re having a good or a bad day with it.
Does anyone else ever get obsessions where you worry that your OCD isn’t real or isn’t bad enough to be OCD?
my biggest fear is what if i don't actually have ocd and get exposed as a fraud. im afraid i might have been living a lie the whole time. i keep thinking that im not as ill as others here. i feel like i don't deserve attention, it's like im unconsciously invalidating myself all the time and j can't help but think that im an impostor in disguise. that im just doing this for attention. that i just want to be mentally ill to feel like i fit in somewhere. when i show a new ocd symptom im afraid that oh im probably just copying something that i saw off this app here because i want to feel like i truly do have ocd. i know i most likely have it but im so stuck in this loop of doubt. my ocd isn't as severe as it was in the beginning so that makes me feel even more invalid and i have developed impostor syndrome over the years.
So sometimes I feel fake and evil, like everything I do or say is fake and that I’m gonna do something evil or apparently already done (false memories). Like I know it’s ocd cuz I got the symptoms, but i can’t get diagnosed yet, which then makes me doubt if I’m faking that as well. I’m kinda scared tbh and saying this makes feel like I’m lying and then lying about not lying and yeh
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