Std paranoid! My health checks are obscene Since four months ago I convinced myself I’m riddled after googling symptoms, and spiralled then more symptoms appeared I’ve been to the doctor god knows how many times - maybe 10 ish The optician 5 times about eye std paranoia Another optician 3 times 4 std clinics Phoned clinics repeatedly Phoned sexual health helplines repeatedly Still scared and depressed and feel at risk of losing my partner Why can’t my brain accept I’m ok? Does anyone know why it’s hard to accept it?

Username: JennyJJennyJ

Date posted: 5y ago

Oh my I feel you. I don't know. I just don't get it. I go through the same but regarding pregnancy. I'm not pregnant. I even had a blood test to make sure. It came back negative, of course. It wasn't necessary. But if I my stomach gets a little swollen, then I will think I'm pregnant. Even when I get my period I fear I might be pregnant. Does any of this make sense? Hugs for you, just risk living! If you happen to get sick you'll just get treatment. It's easier to free yourself from stds than from ocd

Username: rlrrlr

Date posted: 5y ago

you’re totally fine and healthy! don’t worry! there’s no way the test could have lied that many times. when my ocd gets super bad it honestly just takes time and I think to myself “u think this everyday, and everyday it hasn’t been true, so why would today be any different?” you got this!!

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

I’m negative for everything Oral Vaginal Rectal Please please stop checking now

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

My brain is just a C U Next Tuesday

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

100% had a rectal swab it’s all negative I called her again and she’s like yeah Ffs yeah you did you’re all fine it’s all negative

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

Aw thankyou so much kind stranger!! I feel like a freak sometimes

Username: rlrrlr

Date posted: 5y ago

so do I! I’m on this app up at almost 4 am convinced that I’m having a heart attack (which happens almost every night). you’re not alone. ocd gets better and then worse and then better again. reading about other people’s anxieties makes me feel less alone though, thank you for being brave enough to share it here.

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

I called another sexual health helpline ? o had period pain after my period ended and got so paranoid...she was the same woman I spoke to yesterday about my eye. She told me I DO NOT NEED to std test again unless I slept with someone else (which I haven’t) so she said it’s just health anxiety cuz once I get relief from one thing I find another. She gave me a helpline for anxiety instead to “deal with the actual problem” Why am I this way ?

Username: uwotm8uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

She just said I can rule out STDs because I have already tested negative for them

Username: genericusername

Date posted: 5y ago

After being sexually assaulted I developed a fear of sex and as a protection my OCD became obsessed with STDs and I’ve been tested a million times for everything they will test me for (they strongly recommended against testing me for herpes because everyone has it in some form and if you’re not showing symptoms and using protection it is near impossible to pass on so it doesn’t matter until you want to settle down and there is a big stigma) I’ve always come back clean, even for the random shit I googled like mycoplasma that I begged to be to be tested for. I still freak out. And now since I am starting to believe I am ok I don’t want to have sex with someone else Incase they infect me (even though if we use condoms and they get the routine test for HIV, Hep, Syphillis, Gonnorhea , and Chlymidia) the odds are slim. What do I do!!! And I agonize over whether I should disclose I have HPV even though my gyno says no because everyone has it (literally the CDC says that) and it goes away on its own almost always and dude to the lack of education it would do more harm than good. I think I am just finding reasons to avoid intimacy at this point and my OCD is making me intensely fearful about my sexual health in a very painful way to distract me, and I can’t deal. I’d rather just confront my issues.

Username: uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

Anyone else find it hard to trust their memory? I literally JUST spoke to a nurse who confirmed my old test for trichomonos/trichomoniasis was negative and I’m still like “did you hear her right? Was she talking about the same thing you were? Are you sure you can relax?” My brain can’t accept I’m fine I dunno why

Username: uwotm8

Date posted: 5y ago

Does anyone know why ocd still finds ways to dispute facts? I’ve had so much confirmation I don’t have STDs and my brain still finds ways to pick holes in it, and convince me I have reasons to be scared, why is this? I have tangible proof I’m okay and I STILL can’t fully relax?! I don’t get it I thought when I had std tests I’d be instantly fine

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