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Oh my I feel you. I don't know. I just don't get it. I go through the same but regarding pregnancy. I'm not pregnant. I even had a blood test to make sure. It came back negative, of course. It wasn't necessary. But if I my stomach gets a little swollen, then I will think I'm pregnant. Even when I get my period I fear I might be pregnant. Does any of this make sense? Hugs for you, just risk living! If you happen to get sick you'll just get treatment. It's easier to free yourself from stds than from ocd
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you’re totally fine and healthy! don’t worry! there’s no way the test could have lied that many times. when my ocd gets super bad it honestly just takes time and I think to myself “u think this everyday, and everyday it hasn’t been true, so why would today be any different?” you got this!!
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I’m negative for everything Oral Vaginal Rectal Please please stop checking now
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My brain is just a C U Next Tuesday
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100% had a rectal swab it’s all negative I called her again and she’s like yeah Ffs yeah you did you’re all fine it’s all negative
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Aw thankyou so much kind stranger!! I feel like a freak sometimes
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so do I! I’m on this app up at almost 4 am convinced that I’m having a heart attack (which happens almost every night). you’re not alone. ocd gets better and then worse and then better again. reading about other people’s anxieties makes me feel less alone though, thank you for being brave enough to share it here.
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I called another sexual health helpline ? o had period pain after my period ended and got so paranoid...she was the same woman I spoke to yesterday about my eye. She told me I DO NOT NEED to std test again unless I slept with someone else (which I haven’t) so she said it’s just health anxiety cuz once I get relief from one thing I find another. She gave me a helpline for anxiety instead to “deal with the actual problem” Why am I this way ?
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She just said I can rule out STDs because I have already tested negative for them
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- 25w
So everything has been going well recently. The only thing pressing is for peace of mind I am getting STD tested on Wednesday morning and I am pretty anxious about what the result will say. I go to certain massage parlors that offer extras. And I have made a point to not engage in intercourse but other non-intercourse things I have done. I was afraid that since those women do other things with people that maybe virtual things were left on the beds I would lay down on or something. I told this to a doctor I saw recently and they said it was highly unlikely. But I still have the health worry. But we will see come Wednesday. The only reason I am going is because I went to the urologist and they wanted me to rule things out since I had what seemed like a UTI but it turned out to not be the case. What's a good way to not focus on catastrophizing the situation. I keep worrying that my life is over if I am diagnosed with something and my future relationships will be tainted or I'll put someones health in jeopardy
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- 22w
I think I may have SO-OCD and OCD in general. At a young age fear of death. I use to tap my heart 8 times (lucky number) for each person I loved. Then I think I suffered with ROCD and HOCD when I was 18 after 2 bad relationships who they ran off with a ‘close’ friend at the time. I’ve struggled with OCD and these HOCD/ SO-OCD about 12 years ago but the HOCD went and the ROCD came back and forth. I did previously last year have a Fear of death of my children with alligators going on holiday after reading a bad article in Florida which lasted few months. Briefly Started with ‘R-OCD’ again but went pretty quickly. Am I good enough for my partner? Is she going to leave me? What if she finds someone else? Though I saw a picture of a good looking male on a social media which my Brian instantly questioned if I was gay, panic and anxiety which lead to which I think is SO-OCD and HOCD. An obsession is an unwanted and unpleasant thought, image or urge that repeatedly enters my mind, causing feelings of anxiety, disgust or unease. A compulsion is a repetitive behaviour or mental act that you feel you need to do to temporarily relieve the unpleasant feelings brought on by the obsessive thought. I’m stuck in obsessive doubt around my sexual identity, even though I say that deep down i know what my sexual identity is but even this is being questioned at the minute and I want to cry. I have always, always been interested in women. That much I would say I had a sex addiction. My attraction to the opposite sex has pretty much disappeared. I have a fleeting thought of attraction which will set off a cascade of doubt and terror which some thoughts/ feelings make me physically sick. I’m scared of going out in public or even looking at people especially men for the fear of false attraction. I try to do ERP when I do have moments but it makes me want to be sick. My brain feels like it’s in a clamp and I can’t stop the constant thoughts. It feels like something is my head has stopped or not working correctly. Even at night. Every time I wake my chest seems to feel strange and the thoughts are suddenly there. I’ve tried ERP but it makes me want to be sick even when it subsides. I am still continuing this but I feel so drained. I just want to be myself again who I was 3 months ago. I hate that this has happened and I feel that I can’t cope, can’t be the husband I want to be, can’t be the father I want and was. These are my main issues at the moment; false attraction to pretty much any male even voices, decrease attraction in opposite gender, severe anxiety, I can’t sleep or eat, constant thoughts 24/7 and scenarios, groinal responses, seavere recriminatory thinking, I hate myself, I even have false attraction to myself in the mirror. What is wrong with me? I just want to be the husband and father I was a few months ago!
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- 20w
This fear keeps coming back and it’s to the point I cry and what to panic. I no longer talk to the man simply because I wanted to move on and find something meaningful to have with someone (relationship wise). I still keep fearing I need to go get my blood checked. Thoughts like “what if I have it and don’t know it and give to someone?” “What if that urine test I took months ago didn’t work” I got tested for stds but it came back negative. They took a urine test but google says you have to have your blood drawn!! I’m so scared. My mind tells me “you have HIV” and then a sense of peace comes and scares me even more!!!
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