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It doesn’t. You don’t enjoy thinking about children in other contexts, it’s super specific to this particular event. It’s just a weird connection your brain made. I say shrug it off. Explore new things that make you feel good.
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I’m in the same boat. Don’t hate yourself, hate the ocd. You might consider seeing a professional to help you through this.
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Maybe it’s like harm ocd. Or the idea hurting. It could be a way of punishing yourself. It could also be intrusive thoughts. I wish I could be more of a help!
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I appreciate your words. Sometimes, as I am sure you know, we get some wrapped up with the OCD, we lose all sight of reality. Much love❤️
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I feel like I could never ever talk about this. I’m so ashamed.
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This is a no judgement zone on here. We all struggle with things. And if you go to a psychiatrist or therapist, they wouldn’t judge you either.
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I have always had this birth fetish ever since I was a kid. I liked the idea of painful births. I wish I didn’t but I do. And I’ve accepted that. I guess I sorta like BDSM and stuff like that. Then one day a thought popped into my head thinking how it would be even more painful for a child to experience it and I would like that reaction because of how bad it would be. And ever since I thought of it, I have felt disgusting and horrible.
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People like weird stuff all the time. And we can’t help it. If this particular fetish both pleases and disgusts you, you don’t have to engage in it. You also don’t have to beat yourself up over having it. Your brain made an odd connection and you can’t help how your body will react to it. I’d suggest exploring more of the BDSM world to find other kinds of stimulus that you can both enjoy and not feel guilty about. A sex therapist may also be useful. Don’t worry about sharing it with them: they’ve heard it all.
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I think I start to feel guilty because I wouldn’t really call it an intrusive thought. Because I feel like I liked the idea of it and felt guilty about that and worried that made me a pedophile.
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Everyone has ‘strange’ interests. You only have to look on a porn site and see all the different categories and videos. I would definitely recommend seeing a therapist. There’s nothing they haven’t heard or seen before I promise you. They could help you understand why you have these interests and stop you from feeling guilty about them x
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Idk if im the only one but I've literally just been holed up in my bedroom for the past 3 months and have barely gone out especially in the last 2. I'm too scared to leave and interact with people normally because I feel like a criminal and like someone who doesn't deserve to be around others. But in the same breath, I'm starting to hate my bedroom. It just feels like all my negative emotions are being bottled up and stored in here. I keep telling myself I should go out and take a walk and maybe it will feel better to just be out in the fresh air. But also don't want to because I'm quite lethargic on top of not eating that much either. Just feeling... stuck.
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the most debilitating ocd flare-up i’ve been having for the past few months has been about the guy i used to talk to. we weren’t dating per-se, but whatever was going on between us was very confusing and unclear, and it ended up with me being very hurt. he was basically leading me on, and couldn’t commit to me. it’s been months since we’ve stopped talking and i still can’t stop thinking about him. i don’t even care about him that much in an objective sense, but i am genuinely obsessed with him. everything i see reminds me of him, and my mind is constantly running through thoughts about him and our situation — why did it go the way it did, what did i do wrong, does he still think about me, etc. it’s honestly so humiliating and makes me feel pathetic because i know he’s probably moved on by now, and i still can’t handle the thought or sight of him. i just wish i could stop ruminating, because it’s gotten so bad that i can’t focus on school or anything else in life. it’s so constant to the point where, when i bring it up to my friends (which is very often), i’m met with concern and even frustration rather than sympathy. how can i cope with the rumination? it’s genuinely exhausting, and i can’t sleep at night because my brain is just running like a motor. i have dreams about it almost nightly as well. anything helps!
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Hi everyone, I’m new here, and I wanted to share my experience. I’ve been struggling for over a year now on obsessing over a mistake. And the rumination of the mistake I made has been overwhelming and exhausting in those two years. I feel like such a horrible person. At the time, I didn’t realize what I was doing would affect me so much. When I realized it was wrong, I just said I’ll never do it again, and I moved on. But then months later, I was reminded of what I did, and I felt like I did the worst thing in the world, and that my life will never be normal again. And ever since then, it’s been a constant thought. And it’s exhausting. I have been able to open up to my family and a close friend about it and their reactions were so nonchalant compared to what my brain has been telling me. They say it wasn’t even that bad, and that I shouldn’t be beating myself up. I tell them how badly I feel and they just act like it was nothing. I thought that would help, but my brain continues to tell me how horrible of a person I am and I obsess over this one mistake I made two years ago. I’ve learned from it, I’ve moved on, I’ve opened up about it, I’ve gotten reassurance, but yet it still eats at me. It’s constant some days. Where all I wanna do is lay down in a corner and never leave. I feel like my life will never be normal again and I’ll never experience happiness again. Whenever I smile or feel any type of joy my brain tells me to stop and reminds me that I’m a bad person and I don’t deserve to be happy. Even though everyone tells me what I did wasn’t even that bad. And that it doesn’t make me who I am. But guess it’s not enough and I’m really running out of options.
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