confused writer
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- 1y
Woke up kind of numb
Like the thought are there but not really. I’m not stressed. Everything is just … flat. Something weird. 🤔
KollinKollin
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- 1y
Feel like you do what to move on? If that is your feeling towards it that’s a good thing ! Your thoughts are losing there bite . When I felt like I was at the edge of everything my thoughts suddenly went numb and my initial reaction was or crap am I really crazy, but as I let the numbness sink in and really feel my body and thoughts I realized it was actually my first step into seeing that this doesn’t have as much control over me anymore . The more you just go about your day and let whatever feelings or thoughts ruminate the more you will starve whatever is going round and round . Whatever feelings you have are okay to let be and move about your day as you normally would !
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Anonymous It’s like rn I feel I want to do it (I have suicidal ocd) but I know I didn’t and had many chances so I’m like wait what and I’m not stressed so it continues
KollinKollin
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- 1y
That’s like the back door end of it , initially I felt all the anxious and panic so I started to feel that the panic and everything was a good thing because it meant my thoughts weren’t true . But after I lost all of that and went numb I was like “oh crap does that mean that this could actually be true” don’t let it fool you . It’s another way of sucking you back in . It’s okay to not be so so “scared” or “numb” . That’s actually you being ready to take more steps into just letting it be
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 1y
I was literally in group today and asked this same question. I was getting concerned that maybe I was going crazy and my intrusive thoughts were true. But this is a much better and more positive way of looking at it.
KollinKollin
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- 1y
@Anonymous :), currently going through “not being able to tell what is intrusive” and answering every thought I have and that’s another way if it sucking you back in. All just a learning process
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Kollin Same for me.
KollinKollin
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- 1y
@confused writer Definitely the most confusing part
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Kollin What theme do you have?
KollinKollin
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- 1y
@confused writer Currently bouncing around with harm, perfectionism, and events . They all start to fuse together. They all start with an initial intrusive thought then turn into this mosh pit blend of thoughts for me. Rumination becomes automatic sometimes so it gets hard to pick out what started as intrusive . But bottom line it’s Pure O
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Kollin I have pure O but suic!dal. Rumination all day long, even if I don’t want it. Horrible. You don’t know what’s real anymore
KollinKollin
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- 1y
@confused writer Feel that, seems like ERP just making it feel different . Not really sure what progress I’m making but keep chugging along !
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Kollin Do you use medication?
KollinKollin
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- 1y
@confused writer Yes lexapro
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Kollin Doesn’t it help?
KollinKollin
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- 1y
Could be your first step in being ready to move on ! Thats not a bad thing !
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Anonymous But I feel like maybe now I do want to do it? Or ready to? 🤣🤣🤣 idk it kind of scares me
KollinKollin
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- 1y
Also try guided meditation! I recommend yongey mingyur. He suffered with similar things , it’ll allow you to sit with your feelings and be aware to them
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Anonymous Thank you very much! I’ll try. And that’s exactly how I feel like I’m going crazy rn
KollinKollin
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- 1y
Pretty much no anxiety or panic but it is no cure to the mental anguish
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Kollin Oh that’s hard. Are you in therapy?
KollinKollin
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- 1y
@confused writer Yea I do ERP , and I have a CBT app that I use :), wbu?
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Kollin No medications yet, CBT + psychotherapy
KollinKollin
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- 1y
@confused writer Gotcha, best of luck 🤞
confused writerconfused writer
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- 1y
@Kollin Thank you sm 🙏🏻
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