This sounds insane bc ocd causes so much pain in my life, but it's almost like I'm scared to let it go?? Idk if that's ocd trying to cling on for dear life or if it's me. Logically I don't want to feel horrible bc of ocd forever but what kind of weird thought of "what if you actually want ocd forever?" ?!
I completely get this. When your brain is constantly in fight or flight mode, it becomes your new ‘normal’. It’s a sense of familiarity, so not having that there scares you bc it’s outside of your comfort zone. There’s a lot of uncertainty around it — and it’s a process that takes time, but you can get there 💗
Yes yes yes 10000%. It's just what I've been so used to for such a long time it's freaky to imagine life without it I guess? It seems so backwards! Glad I'm not the only one who has felt this way.
@Ng16 Really?? So you've had the same kind of question it sounds like. I feel like it's tying into meta ocd for me rn. Super frustrating
I know this is a very common sentiment with OCD. In my experience, I’ve felt like if I let go of the anxiety, then there won’t be anything left to hold me back in the future from doing something that my intrusive thoughts tell me to do. However, that’s a normal part of OCD recovery and while we can never be certain about what the future holds, just know that your feelings are valid, normal, and all part of the process. Best wishes 🤍
Thank you so much! Very wise words. I suppose although it causes us such immense pain, it's some sort of twisted security blanket.
@Anonymous Absolutely! You almost become accustomed to it to the point where you expect it or even need it.
I feel this. I start feeling better then worry about not worrying enough😔
Maybe that's it!!
Weird question but does anyone get the random fear that you actually “enjoy” the intrusive thoughts and OCD is just an excuse and you don’t want to get better? Or am I crazy. Of course I want to be free :(
Does anyone ever get scared that they are just trying to convince themselves that it’s OCD. I have this fear that my intrusive thoughts about harm aren’t actually intrusive nor is it actually OCD and I’m actually some sort of crazy evil human being all of a sudden. As I’m writing this I can see how silly that is. Of course it’s OCD, but there is always that “what if” and it makes me scared of myself. I know that this could be considered “obsessing about obsessing,” but like I said, there is always that, “What if you are different? An anomaly.”
Is anyone else scared to recover because that could mean that it isn’t OCD? 🙃🙂🙃🙂
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