Can someone give me some advice

Just started treatment with a doctor, I don’t get the thoughts as much and they still scare me but it’s less severe . However I still don’t feel like myself , I still feel like I’m not me anymore . I’m still depressed and I don’t know what’s real and I feel like I’m losing myself still . Is this supposed to be happening ?

Yeah that’s very normal especially since you’re beginning recovery. You can’t put a date on when you’ll start to get better or feel better because that puts a lot of pressure on you which could stop recovery or slow it down. You have to remember that OCD has a way of really messing you up to the point where you feel drained or even empty , even when you’re not worrying about the fear. I experienced this a lot

Sure

Okay I just wanted to make sure I wasn’t gone forever . Thank you guys for the advice

Yeah, then definitely check out the app. If you go on and don't see anyone available within a week, you can check back daily and some become available on the same day! Also, were you feeling the way you described while on the meds? If so, you might need to try a different one. I have been on fluvoxamine for 12 weeks and feel no different!? BUT! This is a fact that usually it's a trial and error thing until finding the right med. I'm going to try Paxil next?

Just hang in there! There is hope, even if it doesn't seem like there is! Just gotta keep on trucking along.

You are welcome! Here is a link to a website that compares different meds for OCD that are reviewed by sufferers like us! I like reading the reviews because I can see people get real relief, and it keeps me going. https://www.drugs.com/condition/obsessive-compulsive-disorder.html

Thats normal. Everyone has better and worse days

Try erp

Have you considered using medication? I have been suffering intensively with OCD for 7-8 years now, and I have finally decided to try medication and therapy. Before, I use to be scared of the medicine. But I have reached a point in my life (after pretty much destroying it) that I decided to give it a shot. I have been on fluvoxamine for 12 weeks now and honesty don't feel quite any different, unfortunately, but it is a fact that a majority of people don't usually get relief from the first medicine that they try, and usually takes a few trials (which I did fear?) but after reading hundreds of reviews of people from all sorts of different meds, and reading the relief they got, I kind of want that! But medicine is only the water wings; therapy is what will truly give lasting results, the pills just help with the therapy. Maybe give it some thought!

Yeah I’m on meds I just ran out and have been trying to get more

Oh no!!! That's not good! Are you having trouble getting into a psychiatrist? If so, check out the app LiveHealthOnline, there is a psychiatry option(which I use) where you can see a psychiatrist within a few days or even in the same day!(when I used it I got to see my current psychiatrist the next day)

Okay I will and yeah I got my meds from being hospitalized and now I ran out struggling to find someone

Thank you