- Username
- monarchy-in-my-brain
- Date posted
- 29w ago
Struggling with ERP treatment for OCD and seeking others' experiences.
Unwilling to do ERP
Because...well, hell no lol. Maybe that opinion will change in the coming months. I'm doing therapy that's mostly DBT but my therapist is integrating ACT and probably ERP at some point. Right now my main problem is depression, but recovery from depression is inhibited by OCD and core beliefs. What's odd to me is that I don't really get intrusive thoughts, instead I have extremely rigid beliefs and perspectives that I view as facts, and I give a ton of credence to my thoughts and emotions as a whole, as well as a lot of things related to identity, which was spurred on by BPD's (borderline personality disorder) lack of a stable identity. All this is totally messed up lol. I've been in some type of therapy for a nearly-consistent 14 years and every day I feel an immense amount of shame for that. Anyway that's the spark notes version of my being here. I'm not asking someone to tell me to do ERP, but I'm just wondering if anybody has felt the same, and did that change? Naturally with time or did you have to force yourself or? Or perhaps you couldn't finish it? I just want to hear others' struggles because whenever I'm affronted with the fact I have OCD and the ONLY treatment besides medication seems to be ERP I am struck down by hopelessness and dread.