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No one understands
No one would ever understand how it is to be me. I’m in an endless loop. My mind finds new ways to bully me. I’m exhausted and all I can do is cry cry cry. This isn’t the way to live
No one would ever understand how it is to be me. I’m in an endless loop. My mind finds new ways to bully me. I’m exhausted and all I can do is cry cry cry. This isn’t the way to live
I definitely sympathize with how exhausting it is having cyclical thoughts that try to tear you down and make you devalue yourself. Crying is so justified when something that painful feels inescapable. It’s clichéd, but it sometimes helps me to remember what comes up must come down, so the opposite must be true too, right? Wishing you peace from your brain bully and a brighter day ahead ☀️
That is me right now too. I’m sorry you’re going through this too. I know it isn’t a huge comfort but you’re not alone.
Even when people show empathy towards others no one really does know exactly how someone is specifically suffering, unfortunately that is just life . Most people and their problems are unique to them. There is a certain amount of general understanding. But everyone has to be the best version of themselves for themselves and after that assistance to others is good to pursue.
This is me 100%. My mind latches to anything to convince me I’m not a good person. So sorry you’re experiencing this too. I am sure a better days will be here soon. Hugs. ❤️
If there is nothing to obsess on I create something. It's exhausting.
No girl I definitely feel you
Me right now
No one cares about me everyone keeps leaving me! I wish I was never born why do I have to suffer like this why am I alone i want love so badly I want to be normal! Why was i born like this I'm having a breakdown and I'm idk how to change
Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff I’ve done in the past, like all day I’m in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, it’s really lowering my self worth and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didn’t last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of “I’m a good person” to “I’m the worst person imaginable” and I’m so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I can’t because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. I’ve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.
I don’t know if it’s worth it to keep going. I have so many diagnoses, so little support, and constant struggles with finding the right medication. My immune system is weak, I have multiple deficiencies, and I’m dealing with so many physical health problems on top of severe OCD. It’s just too much. On top of everything, my family treats me so not okay. Every single day is a fight just to keep going—to wake up, to eat, to take care of myself even a little. I’ve lost over ten pounds in the last two weeks from how depressed I’ve been. And instead of support, all I get is blame. My family constantly throws my struggles in my face, calling me selfish, as if I’m choosing this. I am trying so hard to push past all of this. But after five long months of severe OCD, anxiety, depression, panic disorder, and everything else making life unbearable, I am exhausted. And to be called lazy? Selfish? *Worthless*? How am I supposed to keep going when the people around me refuse to see how hard I’m trying? I don’t want this anymore. None of this suffering feels worth it. What am I fighting for just to be treated this way by my own family? To be yelled at for the look on my face, when my face reflects nothing but the stress, panic, and despair I’m drowning in? Am I still supposed to smile for them? This isn’t fair. No one should have to live like this. I don’t deserve to be treated this way, I’m really trying to keep going, but I just want everything to end.
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