Dose anyone else experience POCD? If so what steps did you take to recover before seeking therapy? And will you lose loved ones once you've told them?

Yes I will, I definitely will thank you.

Youll never lose loved ones. Your ocd makes you think that. Dont wait for steps. Get therapy asap. Till then dont compulse

How do I stop compulsion? I won't be able to seek help until Monday. I don't have a vehicle. And I'm tight on money. I would love to get therapy as soon as possible.

You force yourself to go through the anxiety even if it feels really bad without compulsions. Over time the anxiety will get weaker and weaker. And the obsessions and frequency of the thoughts will decrease. Only through not compulsions. Thats great therapy is the best solution.

I also suffer from emotional disturbance disorder. So it's hard for me to explain things to people without them thinking that I'm some kind of weirdo. I just want this to be over.

Its fine. let them think you are a weirdo. You have ocd. But who cares what they think. If they judge you they dont matter.

I know I would never harm a child. I'm not even sexually attracted to them , i don't get aroused around them, and I was fine until I moved into my fiance's parents house. Just two days ago I started having these weird thoughts about him. Not necessarily him doing anything sexually, but just seeing him. I get uncomfortable when he's around. I just recently stopped wearing skirts around him, because the last time that I wore a skirt around him I could feel him staring at me. One day I was standing outside getting some sun with the door open and I turned around and he was staring at me. He just started middle school. And I'm 24. I don't like the fact that he may be having those thoughts about me. I don't want to have any thoughts about him, I'm afraid that i might become a pedophile, or people will think that I'm a pedophile. He's an attractive kid....but I'm not attracted to him. My mind is twisting my thoughts.

We live under the same roof with this kid. And I've been avoiding any eye contact, and social contact. I just feel uncomfortable being around him.

Hey I understand how uncomfortable you feel but You’re not supposed to avoid wearing skirts around him as that is avoidance and that counts as a compulsion (you’re trying to decrease the anxiety). A good exposure response prevention (erp) exercise would be wearing the skirt on purpose and sitting with the uncertainty/anxiety that he is watching. You also shouldn’t avoid eye contact/social interaction even if it's really anxiety provoking because if you do keep avoiding him, your ocd will rather get worse than improve. It’s a really tricky disorder. I really recommend therapy as through cbt and erp you will get over your ocd thoughts. I have hocd mainly with a subset of harm ocd so I understand how you feel.

Thank you for talking with me and understanding. These past three days have been very tough for me. I never knew that I was suffering with OCD/ POCD up until three days ago. And I'm just in shock. I will never harm children because that's not what you do it's not right. You don't Intice children. And that's what I've feel like I've done. I just want to go back to who i was before i knew this about myself.

Youre welcome :). Btw the first step to ocd recovery is awareness. So its only upward from here on. And one tip: Dont try to get caught up in the content of the thoughts. I cant reaasure you too much but its only your ocd making you feel that you want to harm or intice children its all fake no matter how scary. Please go to an ocd specialised therapist and tell them everything on your mind. They never judge.

No problem. Good luck :)

One more question. Should I tell my fiance that I'm going to therapy? He doesn't know about any of this. And I don't know if I'm ready to tell him either. Because I don't believe that he will understand....ultimately this may end our relationship. I just wanted to know if I should tell him that I'm going to see a therapist. We have a joint account. He will find out eventually that I've gone to see someone.

He's a spiritual man. He doesn't believe in medicine , or going to see anyone for help. That self healing is the way. He has many years ahead of me. He will be 50 this year. I'm 24 so he's pretty comfortable with his life, and I'm still figuring out just me in general.

Im not sure I can answer that to be honest with you. I dont know enough about relationships to give you relationship advice. I think you should disclose to him that you have ocd and you are getting treated for it eventually, only when youre comfortable with disclosing that fact and its details. You should definitely go to therapy though. Its the best decision you could make for yourself. I recommebd you discussing telling your fiance about your pocd with your therapist. In my case telling my family and friends about my hocd, harm ocd has only had positive outcome and Im grateful for having the courage in doing so.

Ok. Should I seek therapy first, then tell him about my OCD. Then offer him to go to therapy with me, then let my therapist explain to him my POCD thought?

That would be a good plan yeah :)