I’m o.o Okay. So if y’all have followed my posts, you might know I have this weird form of harm ocd consisting of slurs of any kind. So, I was asleep right. And reminder: I’m on prozac and from what I’ve seen vivid dreams are a side effect I think. So, I’m asleep. But then I remember thinking those thoughts almost intentionally but when I tried to stop them they came out at rapid fire. I woke up from that sleep cycle and figured that that was probably because my intrusive thoughts repeating while I’m sleeping was common for me. Except, this happened again right before waking up. And I was frightened, not by the slur itself, but by this fear that I intentionally thought that. After some rumination I’m almost sure that this was both dreams but I seriously don’t know, and if it turns out it was actually Me thinking that I’m gonna feel fucking terrible. Tl;dr idk if I intentionally thought an intrusive thought and at this point I’m too afraid to ask

Here is what WORKED for me: -Think of ur mind as a second person, as person who always with u, its not u but another person. -This way u know that ur mind is seperate from u. -Now just observe all the thoughts & emotions thrown at u by ur mind(the second person). -Do not fight or react, only observe, acknowledge and let the thoughts stay. -Now you can see that this person(ur mind) is mostly talking rubbish. - Then u can process the useful thoughts & ignore the useless thoughts.

Thank you so much waaaaaaaah!!!!!! I feel guilty for just generally having that shit happen to me so I’m glad you gave me this advice :>!!

Hey Rose, I saw your last post about your compulsions and was going to reply, but got caught up with something and cannot find it. So, I will post my reply to that post here.

That's a great start!! Now, I don't want to scare you with this next bit, but it is good to know. First off, it is known that OCD can take 8-12 weeks to respond to a medication, versus a few weeks for major depression. Also, OCD requires higher doses than depression does at well. But, I have heard that if a pill will work, than you should feel some type of an effect (like better mood and such) within 6 weeks or so, which brings me to my next part. It is also known that depressive and OCD patients sometimes have to go through a few trials of different meds, or a combination of meds, to get the right fit. So, if you find that your pill doesn't quite work, or you experience unwanted side effects, which you should give a few weeks to pass but if they don't, then try a different med. I have been on fluvoxamine for 12 weeks now, and unfortunately I don't quite feel any benefit? BUT!! Just keep trying. I am going to try Paxil next. Yes, it sucks to have to wait so long to see if the pill will work, or have to try a couple meds, BUT! it will be worth it. Here is a link to a website with reviews on different meds for OCD https://www.drugs.com/condition/obsessive-compulsive-disorder.html I recommed it because it shows both that a certain pill will give one person DRAMATIC relief, where another person says it didn't work. For me, it helped because it gave me hope that once I find the right meds, I too can experience dramatic relief!

And you can too!!! We just got to keep on trucking along.