I am experiencing the absolute worst depersonalization I have ever experienced and I do not know what to do. Nothing feels real and I am so scared and it really feels like I am so detached from myself. What can I do to make this stop? I am so worried I am going to do something horrible in this state. PLEASE HELP!!!
Heyyyy! Omg! This is the first time I've opened this app since like... forever ago but I remember you! I'm so sorry this is happening! I have gone through this plenty of times, especially during my last episode! Firstly, the more you try to push yourself out of it and fight it, the worse you will feel. I know that's a lot easier said than done because it is very scary but you are okay! You are safe! I would definitely try to remind yourself of those things but also try not to put too much focus on it otherwise it will make you feel worse. Remind yourself that your brain is just doing what it thinks it needs to do to for you, even though it's scary. I know that's not much but I will definitely talk to you as much as you are comfortable with to help you! 🤣
Omg please ignore that emoji! I meant to put ❤️❤️
@ctc1999 Hi! I remember you as well! This is so scary. It feels like I am not going to remember the moment. Like I am not registering what is happening in the moment. Does that even make sense?
@Catlove9 That's what I've read that you habmve to live like it's not there and it should lessen with time. But this is taken to long
@Anonymous I know. I do try but when it keeps coming at me, I get discouraged.
@Catlove9 Yes! That makes perfect sense!! The most important thing to remember is that you are safe, even though this is scary! You are going to be okay! ❤️❤️ It might feel like eternity but it will soon be over and done with!
@Catlove9 Same like I'm a very strong and resilient guy but this has also got the best of me
@ctc1999 Thank you. Now I’m just worried of when it will come back.
@Anonymous I know exactly how that feels. I can get through most anything but this has me crippled.
@Catlove9 I think this bs is gonna ruin my summer
@Anonymous I know what you mean. Try to do what you were going to do anyway
@Catlove9 Even of I do this is always there not only the dpdr but the urge to act on my thoughts
@Anonymous Omg same here! I have the exact same. And that coupled with dpdr is so scary.
@Catlove9 Very
@Catlove9 Ours brains are so tricky to deal with sometimes but you are not alone on that! ❤️ If you don't mind me asking, are you still in the OCD episode that you were struggling with when we first talked?
@ctc1999 Nope. This is a different one 😔. I feel like a failure.
@Catlove9 You are NOWHERE near a failure, I promise! I totally get where you are coming from but please try not to be too hard on yourself. I'm here for you! ❤️
@ctc1999 Thank you. That means a lot. I just wish I didn’t feel so out of it. I don’t even recognize myself anymore.
I'm in a dream like state everyday myself
@Anonymous What can I do?
I’ve struggled with DP/DR for many years now. It struck me in the worst possible ways. I used to have to take things like ice packs or heat pads, just to know I’m real.
@kksilly Yah. It feels like I’m not real and everything happening isn’t real or that it’s a figment of my imagination. It’s so terrifying.
@kksilly but my point is, the best thing you could do is just distract yourself. Read, talk to family. Talking to others made me become more aware of myself. In a good way. But, its a baby step type of thing. Even tho, when i experience these episodes its hard to feel in control. But the best you have to do is tell yourself its going to pass. You can do this! 🙏
@kksilly Thank you so much. I really appreciate it!
@Catlove9 Hey, no problem! DP is a very sensitive topic, especially when i hear other people going through it. I understand how it feels DEEPLY. I wish there were faster ways to relieve it, but all you have to do is trust and trust! 😊🙏
@kksilly That’s hard for me because my brain goes “what if this time you’re finally losing it?” But I need to push through that.
@Catlove9 Yeah, those ones suck! 🙁 But the unfortunate thing with OCD is that, you have to sit with uncertainty, right? Its so so hard, but its the only way to make OCD go from the biggest and the greatest to maybe even a middle than we slowlyyyyy start making our way to the smallest. Think of the results once you sit with uncertainty. OCD starts growing smaller. You have to be strong, and i think you are! Going through stuff like this, fighting with OURSELVES, thats strength! I believe in you!
@kksilly Thank you ❤️. That means a lot. I need to keep remembering that. And each time I go through it, I just become stronger. I just wish it would happen quicker!
@kksilly How long does a episode usually last for you if I may ask
@Anonymous It varies. Sometimes it’s minutes, hours, days. But the thing is, even when i was in episodes is to try not to think about how long it will last. It puts more attention to it, which is the opposite of what you want to do. Everyone’s different with it!
@kksilly It's been a month since it's happened I try to ignore it but it just won't leave
@Anonymous Are you in therapy? My therapist definitely helped me get through my episodes. I also tried to eat, sleep and drink better. I take magnesium to sleep.
My therapist only cares about erp I've mentioned this but she doesn't seem to concerned
I deal with this too. Try to remain calm and not fight it. Accept that it is there and it is temporary and is not dangerous
@sarah <3 Thank you. It’s super hard but I know I need to do that next time. I think I fought against it too hard this time.
For me, while it is a safety behavior for OCD, when I am having really bad depersonalization, I read or immerse myself in something on the TV or video games just to calm down. Napping and music helps too, but really just accepting it and breathing and knowing it is just a feeling and nothing is happening external of your mind
@OCD+Autism Thank you. This is super helpful.
I was doing so much better with my OCD. I thought I finally figured it out. However, the last two weeks have been a nightmare. It’s like I went from 0-100 all over again. And it’s become scarier than it ever has been. Every other thought is either causing me anxiety or turning into an intrusive thought. Any headache or feeling of derealization, and I start to spiral. My thoughts are becoming more gruesome and feeling more real. The intrusive urges are so bad it feels like at any moment I could actually just snap. It feels like I am about to go crazy. Another hard aspect is when I’m getting these intrusive urges it feels like I want to do it or I don’t care if I do it. I don’t feel like myself. I feel like this disgusting monster who is just going to lose it and I want it to be over. Why is this happening when I was finally better? It makes me feel like it’s not OCD and I’m actually this person and I’m just holding my true self back. I’m sick to my stomach.
so since mid december i’ve been feeling like this , well first in mid december I’ve started feeling anxiety like normal, normal as in physical things like feeling like im going to pass out, shaking, chest pain, etc. but then it got worse , then it turned into more of mind stuff like feeling not real , feeling weird like idk. my mind is always runningg like on over drive, like looking back at myself that doesn’t seem like me. like idk. i can’t stand to look at myself anymore bc it doesn’t feel like me. i can’t be alone , when i think about to it makes it sm worse. but how do i stop thinking ab it? or make it better. i’m scared it’s gonna get worse. like i can’t even do my makeup anymore bc i think something bad will happen. i can’t go certain places , like stay the night bc i think something bad is gonna happen.
I want to rip out my uterus. Only my hormones can make my OCD and ability to manage it go back to square one. I am spiraling *so* hard. I cannot breathe. My PMDD is going crazy. I’m having a panic attack again. I feel so scared. The POCD is going absolutely insane right now. It feels undeniably real, and my mind keeps drifting to those awful thoughts and what feels like exploring them?? but I can’t for the life of me stop some of these compulsions right now. I was trying to watch something to get my mind off of this but ended up getting triggered twice, so my anxiety is a 10 and I can’t seem to calm down. This panic attack is tuned all the way up.
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