- Date posted
- 1y
Intrusive images
The visuals just seem so real and are so scary ! I don’t want to visualize any of these things!
The visuals just seem so real and are so scary ! I don’t want to visualize any of these things!
I know it’s awful and hard BELIEVE ME. But you HAVE to have the images and not fight them! Say ‘I love these thoughts, bring me more!’ Let the anxiety and the panic wash over you and just ride it out! Your nervous system needs to regulate on it’s own again, you can do this ☺️
@katieR94 Thank you for your comment, so encouraging!
@Anonymous Anytime! We are in this together 💪🏻
Visuals used to bother me more than they do today. I hope this helps you. I think more creative people get the visual OCD intrusive thoughts. I learned even if you get the initial jolt of anxiety usually intrusive visual thoughts are not extremely detailed. I also learned to look at a detail in the environment to pull yourself back from the intrusive thought.
A lot of times I feel like I truly don’t have OCD but then I’m very humbled when I get gruesome images and thoughts of killing my family. I just have a hard time not letting the thoughts stick and try to find the meaning of it. I just feel so stuck with my intrusive thoughts/images. They bring on so many sensations that feel real. I’m just not sure how I should be reacting to them.
are they truly intrusive thoughts or am i thinking and creating automatically graphic images that i dont want to think? i think it happens because it's too easy once you're anxious abt it. i dont enjoy it. i just saw a trigger and had a graphic disturbing se&ual image in my head.
i saw a trigger. and immediately imagined something se&ual that i really dislike and dont want. and now i feel horrible, because even if i didnt like it, i still imagined it. yes, it was an egodystonic intrusive image, but the moment i saw the trigger i knew i was going to have an intrusive image, i could have blocked it, i could have tried, but instead it happened automatically, the same type of se&ual image that is the same specific kind for any trigger, just now i was thinking abt it and it immediately appeared in my head. i dont know how much control do i have in it, because as i think abt it, it gets automatically visualized, but i'm the one who still gives the imput. i wonder how much responsibility do I have in this. because the unwanted image is sudden and automatic, but is like im conceding, im allowing it, like giving it up. it's some kind of self sabotage, it's not ocd creating the intrusive images, it's me imagining automatically and immediately once I see a threat what i don't want to think because i'm so used to, to sabotage myself and it feels horrible, especially if the trigger is a real person. it's like self sabotage. im not receiving passivly, im somehow actively thinking it automatically, i don't know how to explain it. i think abt how can't look at their parents eyes because they would be disgusted by me. no parent would be okay if someone had such images of their triggers even though it was intrusive and unwanted. and that feels defeating.
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