- Date posted
- 45w ago
Intrusive images
The visuals just seem so real and are so scary ! I don’t want to visualize any of these things!
The visuals just seem so real and are so scary ! I don’t want to visualize any of these things!
I know it’s awful and hard BELIEVE ME. But you HAVE to have the images and not fight them! Say ‘I love these thoughts, bring me more!’ Let the anxiety and the panic wash over you and just ride it out! Your nervous system needs to regulate on it’s own again, you can do this ☺️
@katieR94 Thank you for your comment, so encouraging!
@Anonymous Anytime! We are in this together 💪🏻
Visuals used to bother me more than they do today. I hope this helps you. I think more creative people get the visual OCD intrusive thoughts. I learned even if you get the initial jolt of anxiety usually intrusive visual thoughts are not extremely detailed. I also learned to look at a detail in the environment to pull yourself back from the intrusive thought.
My intrusive images were an absolute nightmare back in April. I honestly don’t even know how it got better, I had written a letter to God begging for help. Well recently idk if it’s because I’ve been stressed a lot again and ruminating on a lot of pocd related things from the past the make me worry, but the images have started again and even though they are repulsive and awful, I feel like I’m not reacting how I should. I think I just got to where I would just try to like blink it away and ignore it, but I feel so bad if I’m not feeling absolute shame and guilt. I feel like I feel too normal and sometimes I forget that if anyone knew besides people on here, I can’t imagine what people would think, but I also know it’s not who I am so I feel like I don’t worry as much as I should. Also, I can’t stop worrying about fanfiction I read when I was like 16 and 17. It really bothers me because I keep wondering did I imagine this one character my age? Why did I read this? Did I even know what aging up was then, and even if I did it’s wrong and gross anyway but if I didn’t age this character up then that’s awful. And i just can’t let go but I think it’s triggering me to have the images so idk what to do.
I can’t. I’m so scared. I don’t want to deny the HOLY SPIRIT. I keep having intrusives that make me question my real intentions.
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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