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@Anonymous I keep reassuring my self I’m straight or asking people if they think I’m straight alll of that

@Zappo Ok. Talk to me. We’ll talk each other through this.

@Zappo What do you usually do? Is this how it usually goes, or do you have specific compulsions that you’re actively trying to ignore

@Anonymous My eyes goes to men and I try to look away and shake it off that’s one and yea the ressurance from friends or family or checking to see if I get a gronial response to men and searching up or going on this app as well

@Zappo I look for reassurances from my family, too. So right now you’re texting with me and I see another member on here too. Keep doing this. I am trying to not give into my compulsions, too. We can lean on each other. Tell me something that doesn’t have to do with this. Like…what happened today that was good?

@Anonymous I got a car today very excited about that spent quality time with family hit the gym very productive day today

@Anonymous What about you

@Zappo That’s awesome!!! I missed my gym day today because I have to have a procedure tomorrow, so I couldn’t eat today…that wouldn’t mix well with working out! I worked, but was super glad to just chill on my couch with my puppies when the day was done. And it was SO nice here today, so I went and sat outside for a while. Congrats on the new car!!! What kind, if you don’t mind me asking?

@Anonymous I got a bmw a fucking beautiful car all gray looks amazing what type of dog do you have what’s the breed but yea I got a bmw very excited about that very scared on getting on the road for the first time by myself very nervous about that

@Zappo Ahhhh! That’s awesome!!! And maybe have someone with you the first couple times? But you’ll get used to it in no time, and then you’ll lovvvvvve it! I have 3 chihuahuas. 2 are 5 pounds and one is 15 lbs. They the BEST. One of the littler ones was born with a deformity in her jaw, so her lower jaw never grew and her tongue hangs out all the time. It’s so cute.

@Anonymous That’s amazing I love animals got a lot myself 7 dogs 7 cats big animal lover and about the driving I’ll probably do it with friends the first couple times to get a feel for it about the dogs I have 3 Austrian shepherds 1 German shepherd 1 golden retriever and 2 pitbull mixes beautiful dogs bro very good comfort and good house pets

@Zappo Omg I’m so jealous! I want more, for sure. They genuinely help me when I’m feeling super triggered. I’ll either just pet them, or cuddle them. They always make me feel better!!! How are the compulsions feeling right now?

@Anonymous Better but still there

@Zappo Ok, so what is on the agenda next? Anything tonight?

@Anonymous Gym sleep school boxing right after come back gym again watch tv or something

@Zappo Ok! That sounds like a good plan! Do you have a show you can binge??

@Anonymous Depends what you like what type of shows are you into romantic scary etc?

@Zappo All of the above, haha! Love medical dramas, psychological thrillers, and love stories. You?

@Anonymous For medical gray’s anatomy was a very good show for romantic/supernatural the vampire diaries was very good drama definitely euphoria a lot of good shows but I watch alot of shows but those are mentioned are very good

@Zappo Hrey’s was awesome! I’m currently binging The Resident. If you like funny but also alien type stuff, The Resident Alien was awesome.

@Anonymous Any good movies out there you recommend?

@Zappo Hmmm, Taking Lives, Double Jeopardy, The Lost City, The Proposal, about time, Where The Crawdads Sing, Dream House

@shriya Worse to be honest it’s so hard not giving in to the compulsion cause it feels so real

@Zappo did you give into it?

@shriya Yes sadly

@Zappo That’s ok, don’t beat yourself up for it. it happens to all of us with ocd. I would recommend some cognitive diffusion, try to write down your thoughts and the scary thoughts in funny letters or weird ways. your identity is separate from the identity ocd is making you think you have, if you know you’re straight then you are, ocd is irrelevant and not worth listening to.

@shriya Well I think I am I get turned on to girls I think I am

@Zappo let the ocd thoughts float by like clouds and keep doing your tasks. what do u need to be doing rn?

@shriya Right now is gym time again making the pre workout currently but this ocd thought keeps doubting my sexuality again it keeps saying just because you get turned on to girls doesn’t mean your straight your gay

@Zappo try to put as much attention to your work out as possible. play music, listen to a podcast, but don’t try to stop the thoughts they will come up but what you can say to yourself is “i notice i’m having a thought,” and keep doing what you’re doing

@shriya Yes I will do that so just let the thought run it’s course don’t try and force it out what about the staring at men what do I do about that?

@Zappo do you mean you accidentally look at them and ocd tells you you aren’t straight ?

@shriya My eyes lock on them now and look at there butts before this I was never like this never looked at a guy once I have no idea if that’s ocd

@Zappo when did this start happening?

@shriya 4 months ago

@shriya Does that mean I’m gay or bi or is that ocd?

@Zappo do you feel affection towards them or just keep looking?

@shriya Affection? Iike do I get turned on by it?

@Zappo yea

@shriya also i’m sorry if at any point my advice isn’t the best- i myself suffer from different forms of ocd but am trying to help others with at forms :)

@shriya any*

@shriya No I do not get boners at looking at men

@shriya No no it’s fine your helping

@Zappo how do you feel looking at men vs women? it depends but ocd is making you be fearful and anxious about it when in reality there’s no problem if you’re unsure about your sexuality. it can take time especially if you are still young. i promise you will find your sexuality though.

@shriya try tell yourself “maybe i’m straight, maybe i’m not.” through that you’ll learn to accept uncertainty and be ok with whatever is happening

@shriya I’m pretty sure I’m straight cause I get turned on to women I have had girlfriends before I mean I’m only 16 maybe my sexuality is changing but I think I am straight but my mind says otherwise

@shriya Currently sense this happend I am not attracted to women right now but when I kiss or touch a women I get turned on with men I just stare I don’t really get turned on by them

@Zappo Oh ok. With time, you’ll know for sure, and your brain and body will tell you. Be careful with ocd telling you though, because it often gives false information and doubts. Trust yourself but not the ocd thoughts. Differentiating these thoughts can be difficult , but with therapy and distractions, it is possible as you’ll find relief

@shriya But know there’s nothing wrong in being unsure, or being any of the sexualities. Don’t let ocd scare you into thinking you’re a certain sexuality because that is somehting you will find out it’s not for ocd to decide,

@shriya I know there isn’t it’s just I’ve Always been straight and I’m just worried cause my mind says I’m gay even tho I get Boners to girls I don’t think a gay person would

@Zappo whenever ocd makes you doubt your sexuality, get really invested in another activity and the thoughts will begin to pass and not bother u so much. this could be working out, watching a tv show, hanging or talking with friends, doing schoolwork

@shriya I have a question but it’s not reassurance would a gay person get a Boner to a girl?

@Zappo hey sorry i missed this- i think it’s possible and doesn’t necessarily define your sexuality. how are you doing today?

@shriya Cause I asked a gay friend he said gays don’t get boners at all to girls so I kinda feel like that makes you straight if you do get Boners to girls

@shriya Was doing good till now same gay thoughts and the ressurance thing I don’t get turned on too guys and only girls and that’s still not enough to convice me i keep doubting myself right after

@Anonymous Healing is possible.. So my ocd is obsesseing about my sexuality and making me think I’m gay but in reality I’m straight?