Anyone123
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- 1y
How it started ?
I am curious, how your OCD started and how you doubted it was OCD? (It can be any time of OCD)
NicaNica
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- 1y
I was born with OCD from genetics, so it’s always been there.
SavhatesocdSavhatesocd
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
I had OCD as a child but never got proper treatment for it. It wasn’t until earlier this year, I smoked weed on a balcony and was immediately triggered after receiving intrusive thoughts about jumping over while being high. It literally stuck in my brain and I’ve been going through a flare up now for three months. I didn’t think it could ever get this bad but medication and ERP has been helping and I knew if it didn’t happen now it would happen sometime.
PreenaPreena
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- 1y
I was just wondering, is this OCD?- When I pray, I often keep repeating the same phrase until it feels solid or right. Then I have to move onto the next phrase but not in a way that I lose the first phase/the effect of it in me so I have to start again. For example I'm praying to God 'please help my dad to never get cancer' lots of times and then quickly moving onto 'if I break any promises to you god please help them not to count, I'm sorry for ever making them' but if I feel like I've lost the cancer bit I have to start again. I'll feel good after doing it and then start doing a task and then have to do it again.
Anyone123Anyone123
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- 1y
@Anonymous Let me ask you, did this intrusive thought felt like an urge ? Like you were going to do the intrusive thought ?
Anyone123Anyone123
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- 1y
@Anonymous I think it sounds like OCD but it is important to talk with some one how is a specialist in OCD to diagnosed and help you with that! 😊
PreenaPreena
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- 1y
@Anyone123 Sorry, I'm not really sure what you mean by an urge!! But it does feel like I should do it
PreenaPreena
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- 1y
@Anyone123 Also I cant really afford/access therapy right now so I'm just trying to do the best I can with this app :)
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PreenaPreena
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- 1y
I'm so sorry you are going through this :( it's not a reflection of you, OCD just attacks what we value the most. I hope you feel better soon!!
Anonymous80000Anonymous80000
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- 1y
had perfectionism and ocd with my acrobatic tricks for years along with real event ocd for a few years whixh manifested to much worse for this past year which began through covid 19 and PANS
secretlyobsessed2012secretlyobse...
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
I started when I watched a video about schizophrenia in 9th grade, and then idk it just spiraled and I was fine for years and then one day in senior year of highschool I panicked that I was a serial killer and it turns out I was having severe harm ocd.
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- 21w
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One of my first memories of OCD was from when I was about 8-12 years old. I’ve always struggled with sleeping and prone to twisting and turning due to my brain going like 🧠 🗣️🗣️🗣️ Anyways once I couldn’t sleep and got out of bed one of my parents said, with compassion, ”oh it’s so late, why are you awake it’s school tomorrow” and when they followed me to my room I saw that the time was 22:22 and I felt a really scary feeling in my chest (today I know it was anxiety) and from that day on the time 22:22 🕰️ followed me for years. I was twisting and turning and feeling anxious about my digital clock (I’m a 90s girly) turning 22:22. I could get issues taking deep breaths, being sweaty, uncomfortable and scared and feeling like ”ITS SOON 22:22 AND WHEN THE TIME PASSES IT WILL BE TOO LATE”. I never really understood exactly what was going to be ”too late” but I’m guessing it was getting too little sleep absolutely blown out of proportion. As soon it passed 22:22 it was all good and I could fall asleep 😴 I don’t struggle with those numbers today instead I smile and feel compassionate towards little me. Still OCD sucks, I still struggle with sleep times to times and do have some magical thinking but the big difference is that I logically know that it’s not real even if it emotionally sometimes feel that way. Take care out there. If this made you feel less lonely, wanna share your first memories of OCD? ❤️
Joe87
- Date posted
- 20w
Where did your OCD come from?
So I have been trying to work out over the past 5 years where my OCD come from and have began to realise that ruminating on where it comes from is actually a compulsion in itself. I believe mine come from having a low self esteem and a lot of stress in my life at that time. I then attended talking therapy to try and understand my feelings and intrusive thoughts and all this did was fuel the OCD further because trying to assign meaning to the thoughts is actually the opposite of what we should do. Does anyone else feel like they know what triggered there OCD?
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