- Date posted
- 1y
is there something wrong with me
the fact that we are all real scares the shit out of me, idk if this is existential ocd anymore
the fact that we are all real scares the shit out of me, idk if this is existential ocd anymore
I can relate. Knowing that this is my OCD, I choose not to engage with or judge my OCD thoughts and watch them float on. Inherently, some of these existential questions have no answers. That being the case, I accept the uncertainty that I (or anyone else) do not know & rather than doing compulsions, I pass it on to my higher power and move forward living life in the present and in accordance with my values - My purpose in life is to have peace with myself and those around me. Hope this helps and know that you are not alone.
I get these thoughts all the time, too much actually. And I self reflect into oblivion, but idk what type of OCD I have. I was recently diagnosed, but haven't gone any further yet into my diagnosis. But I completely understand and sympathize with your fear. You're not alone.
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
i’m terrified to get a diagnosis. What if it’s not actually OCD??? I made a list of reasons why i think so and then i think what if im lying and i actually don’t do this stuff and am just dramatic and i just want to have OCD so then my thoughts are justified?? I have struggled in the past year with Pocd & Rocd and then also some bits of thinking im constantly in danger or being watched? I’m scared.
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