is there something wrong with me

I can relate. Knowing that this is my OCD, I choose not to engage with or judge my OCD thoughts and watch them float on. Inherently, some of these existential questions have no answers. That being the case, I accept the uncertainty that I (or anyone else) do not know & rather than doing compulsions, I pass it on to my higher power and move forward living life in the present and in accordance with my values - My purpose in life is to have peace with myself and those around me. Hope this helps and know that you are not alone.

I get these thoughts all the time, too much actually. And I self reflect into oblivion, but idk what type of OCD I have. I was recently diagnosed, but haven't gone any further yet into my diagnosis. But I completely understand and sympathize with your fear. You're not alone.