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- 1y
is there something wrong with me
the fact that we are all real scares the shit out of me, idk if this is existential ocd anymore
the fact that we are all real scares the shit out of me, idk if this is existential ocd anymore
I can relate. Knowing that this is my OCD, I choose not to engage with or judge my OCD thoughts and watch them float on. Inherently, some of these existential questions have no answers. That being the case, I accept the uncertainty that I (or anyone else) do not know & rather than doing compulsions, I pass it on to my higher power and move forward living life in the present and in accordance with my values - My purpose in life is to have peace with myself and those around me. Hope this helps and know that you are not alone.
I get these thoughts all the time, too much actually. And I self reflect into oblivion, but idk what type of OCD I have. I was recently diagnosed, but haven't gone any further yet into my diagnosis. But I completely understand and sympathize with your fear. You're not alone.
It feels like I used to get so many intrusive thoughts in the beginning but now it’s less it’s only thoughts like what if I’m a p what if I’m a p what if I’m lying to myself what if I’m in dentist truly in all this and it was all fake like I’m an imposter, now it’s just feelings and noticing :/ and I hate he feelings that come with it I’m really scared I am one I feel so alone :( I’m taking therapy but my therapist is not specialized in ocd and I don’t think she understands and I don’t want to bring it up bc I brought up a fear that what if I turn into my stepdad and she said “are you attracted to children?” And I said no but it was just an irrational thought that came after I started realizing the trauma that happened to me as a kid, and idk I’m scared to Start with a therapists here bc what if all this just makes it worse and it turns out I am what I fear all along.? :(
i’m so scared im going to lose control and end up locked up or something. this is so exhausting!! i worry that what i have isn’t OCD and that im genuinely insane and im gonna end up in big trouble or that the urges i have are going to actually happen. i dont want to think these things ! i feel like a horrible human being!!
i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔
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