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- 1y
so-ocd triggers that feel real
Now I'm just uncomfortable around all of the same sex but some of them have become more triggers. Like with one talking to and everything was fine and then one day (with the SO-OCD this time firmly cemented in my head) I catch her looking at me in a certain way that I noticed (maybe in my head, like I'm now looking out for things), it caught me off guard and I thought why are they looking at me like that, immediately thought it was a 'come on' thing and got a groinal response and I like "no", then my mind started panicking when looking at them and now, every time there're around, I feel uncomfortable and responses go off and my brain goes "you like them don't you" and then I get an intense response that feels like an urge and my brain goes "yes" but I'm not interested in that. It feels so convincing. And in my mind it says "you're desperate for something" and it makes it worse and I don't like it. Why is it so convincing. I'm even saying this seems like denial, but I'm not in denial because I'm not but in my mind it keeps saying the opposite and makes the anxiety worse. Oh this means "I'm a le..." going through my head. It's ruining my life because it's convincing me and I'm not interested. I know it's because I'm so hyperfocused on it. Does anyone recognise this?