- Date posted
- 1y
Bisexuality and sexuality OCD
To those with HOCD, this may be triggering. Just know that my experience is DIFFERENT from the norm. For me, when I was 13, I had an intrusive thought about being into women. So I compulsively checked every night by thinking about women naked to see if I felt anything. I physically DID feel stuff (though that may have been groinal response because I wasn’t sure yet how I felt about the idea of liking women) Eventually though, I slowly accepted it. Part of me is now worrying that because it was born or OCD, I may not actually be bisexual and just have been mistaking groinal response for attraction this entire time. ….except for the fact that at a certain point, I wasn’t distressed by the idea of being into women. It stopped being a fear or an intrusive thought of ‘what if?’ And instead I realized, “wait… this is kinda fuckin swag. Women are kinda cool??? Fuck yes???” Which I feel is the big difference between other people’s experiences with sexuality OCD and my experience. Either way, it’s ok! It can be uncomfortable to not know who we are or have a label for that, but that’s a part of life. We are ever changing and that’s normal. If it turns out I’m not actually bisexual, that’s ok! I’ll be glad to find that out in my own time and discover more about myself naturally. Have a lovely day, everyone! :3