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- 47w ago
Fear
Does anyone else fear they may die in there sleep?
Does anyone else fear they may die in there sleep?
Passing away in my sleep would be a peaceful way to go . One never knows. Life is short. Each day is a blessing, I try to make my peace at the start and end of each day , just in case “my number is up “sorta speak .
uhm yes. i can't go to sleep unless i physically can't keep my eyes open anymore. I always have to be on my phone and watch a show or scroll endlessly
@BeccaPar4 me too, lately my friend and I have been FaceTiming because I can’t not fall slower
@abbygene27 Asleep
@abbygene27 omg same, We have to fall asleep on facetime every night because we're both genuinely terrified. my screen time for facetime is 47 hours just from the start of this week🧍🏽♀️
Yesss
This happened to me before my psychotic episode. I believe it was one of the first signs of my psychosis. Not saying you have psychosis but that’s what it was for me. Very scary to experience. I hope that you can find a way to manage this symptom and get some good sleep.
This is why i have OCD and got diagnosed
@LaylaRed Me too
Yes 😭
@Anonymous813 Mine is so bad I developed insomnia
Mine probably is too
Yes. I had this happen to a dear family friend (she was only 53) and I didn’t sleep for a week. Every time I went to go to bed I had to tell my partner I love you and it terrified me for a while. Overtook any other themes I had. But I had to sleep, it’s vital to my health (always has been important to me and my recovery). So it became its own exposure and I had to resist the compulsions like telling my partner I love them before bed. It’s hard and I don’t wish it on anyone, especially while dealing with the grief of losing a friend.
Yess. I have OME, (I think that’s what it was) and it causes clicking, and/or a heavy feeling in the head. Because of this clicking sound I’d hear sometimes, I would stick my fingers in my ear and thought I found a bump. (Literally just the shape of the ear canal.) but I literally thought I had a tumor in there. I would lay away, so anxious about it, and because I was so anxious about it, I could felt the anxiety in my chest, which caused me to believe I had something wrong my heart. I would lay away, listening to my heartbeat, believing any second it would just stop. Eventually it had gotten so bad I just had a attack of some kind since I wasn’t sleeping, and the anxiety was just getting worse.
Really bad theme right now is death, I keep thinking about how one day or at any moment my heart will stop my brain will stop & my memories & everything I know will all fade away. It is giving me so much anxiety I’m only 18, but I realize it all happens to us it is bound, we are born to die. I know it’s a silly thing to be scared because it’s not helping the quality of my life worrying about it and even when I do die, I won’t care , if you don’t have a working brain then how can you care 🤷♀️. It is tainting my everyday life currently & honestly making me terribly depressed & it is giving me derealization & making me feel nihilistic, I’ll remind myself it’s okay but then with my ocd i don’t stop thinking and thinking about it and it’s seriously so hard to stay present in the moment because this thought just feels like I can’t scrub it away it’s miserable I struggle with religion, but I do pray to anything that’s out there possibly listening, because it is comforting, it just feels like this whole experience Is pointless & I am afraid of the unknown and what is to possibly happen but I’m subjected to it anyways so why should it matter
I feel so freaking scared. I know I’ll have an intrusive thought/urge and whatever I know I’m going to fight off another compulsion until I eventually give in bc I’m still so new to this. I am petrified and I feel like I cannot for the life of me relax. I’m sleep deprived, in a terrible place hormonally, withdrawing from meds, and being treated like a burden by people around me. I literally feel like I can’t do this. I keep thinking about those posts where people talk about the hypothetical scenarios where you learn your death date. I feel like if someone told me I’d die soon, I would cry of relief. I would never hurt myself but boy do I not want to experience this anymore.
I'm currently living through a massive health scare with really scary symptoms. I am scared I might have an aneurysm due to my symptoms but despite that the doctor's don't think it's urgent. I have some test scheduled but I will have to wait weeks for some of them. I don't know how to get through this knowing I could die any moment. I live in constant terror ever since those symptoms started. I can't function. Can anyone here please help me with this??? I don't know what to do?
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