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POCD and guilt
Hi all, I was wondering how other people with POCD deal with the guilt and shame that come with the POCD
Hi all, I was wondering how other people with POCD deal with the guilt and shame that come with the POCD
Yes especially when it crosses with real event ocd
I had a really bad bout of POCD about 2 years ago and the guilt killed me for a while. The best way I dealt with it personally was just to see myself as someone with a severe anxiety disorder and not a p. It was hard at first since the OCD makes you doubt you have OCD but I told myself that over and over until it settled into my thought patterns. Eventually that's partially what helped the POCD go away as well. I still get the intrusive thoughts but I'm mostly able to ignore them as I just think "that's OCD" and they go away :)
Yes pocd was my first ever theme before I even knew I had ocd or what it even was. Took me a few years to get through it and over the guilt completely but it does happen. My therapist would always tell me you are not hurting anyone with those thoughts except for yourself and you have to forgive yourself.
Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
What to do when we feel guilty about our ocd checking and compulsive behaviors?
I’m currently struggling with guilt from checking OCD. By this I mean, I feel guilty and shameful by my OCD checking because I feel as that was immoral and wrong and I really don’t know what to do. How can I fight this?
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