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Is pushing away intrusive thoughts a compulsion?
Is pushing away intrusive thoughts a compulsion?
It definitely is! I’m no expert but I think it falls under pure OCD. That’s the main way my OCD manifests. For me, it looks like this; I get a terrible intrusive thought, start to feel anxious and like me thinking about it will make it a reality, to make sure it doesn’t become a reality I “explode” the thought in my head. I quite literally imagine the thought balling up into sort of a star-form of energy or whatever, and then the star explodes. I do it a lot and it’s one of the more mentally distressing forms for me because sometimes if I don’t do it right I have to do it over again just to be sure. Now I’m learning that agitates the thought even more, pushing them away isn’t the solution, living with them is.
i wonder this too and i think it is. It's scary tho cuz they're intrusive for a reason and i dont want to think of themmmmm lol
Okay, so this is really meta and I vibe with that. To be serious though, I believe it can be. Like sometimes when I’m really trying to shake a compulsion or stop myself from thinking about or doing something that’s related to a compulsion or intrusive thoughts, I find myself obsessively rejecting the thought or action. Like I might have to do something with my body or with my mind to “properly” push the thoughts away so that they will be “gone.” Sometimes I almost imagine myself physically escaping the thoughts. I don’t know how to explain what that looks like in my head, but yeah. So basically to answer your question, I think yes, very much so.
does anyone else use the fact that they dont like their thoughts as a confirmation/compulsion, and or when you go through something stressful with little to no compulsions take it as a sign they actually like it? is this apart of usual rumination or am I expirencing something different? and how do you deal with it?
At times, my intrusive thoughts get so intense that all I can do is lay frozen in my bed and hope I fall asleep, and usually I do even if I'm not tired. My brain just wears me out and I wanna escape through sleep. (Sadly it doesn't work all the time)
I’ve noticed that I’m somewhat happier also ignoring my thoughts than I am instead of doing compulsions (I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired atp) but I’ve heard you’re technically supposed to do erp rather than pushing under the rug. But idk if I have a thought I just refuse to think about it again and im fine even if I want to do compulsions
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