Username: Rydder

Date posted: 31w ago

Harm OCD

Hello, my name is Rydder, I’ve been having OCD my whole life and I’ve been able to handle my thoughts, but lately the past 3 months have been a wild ride! I went from court to court after 2 years of issues with the system, now that it is over I am scared about my well being, I’ve been having very bad intrusive thoughts lately about hurting myself or others, and it’s even making me hunch over in bed shaking and crying everyday because I’m not that type of person…. The mornings are so tuff I don’t even want to make it to work anymore, I’ve even called crisis lines because of my thoughts of hurting myself or other people with sharp objects, I just want to feel okay again! If anyone else has these thoughts please let me know and how to manage because I’m at the point where I call out to much and may become fired if I do!

Username: lhohertzlhohertz

Date posted: 31w ago

I would that you need to talk to others with same issues. I’ve had the same thing you’ve had ever since was in my early teens and it’s not easy sometimes. But alway remember in your mind that those thoughts are not you and that it’s just the “ocd” talking . You’re a good person !

Username: Tea and HoneyTea and Honey

Date posted: 31w ago

Everything is okay! You are experiencing classic OCD. This is exactly how OCD works. This is a common way that it affects people. The experts understand this very well. And they can help you. The answer is almost always ERP. Have you been trained in ERP?

Username: RydderRydder

Date posted: 31w ago

@Tea and Honey No I have not

Username: Tea and HoneyTea and Honey

Date posted: 31w ago

@Lilpeep12 Okay, ERP might really, really help you. It might change things around for you completely. Like I said, some people go from being stuck in their houses to functioning in life after they learn ERP. I recommend NOCD. They take most insurance. However, you could find a therapist anywhere. Just make sure that they are trained in ERP. Some therapists are not, and they potentially won’t help you. Nathan’s Peterson’s videos might be very helpful as well.

Username: elinorrebeccaaelinorrebeccaa

Date posted: 31w ago

i had to call out of work yesterday because my intrusive thoughts completely took over me and it felt like there was no space in my brain to do anything else or even to move my body. i wish i knew how to help you, or how to help myself, but downloading this app is a good first step❤️ you’re not alone

Username: Tea and HoneyTea and Honey

Date posted: 31w ago

ERP (exposure and response prevention) therapy can often take people who are completely debilitated by their OCD and stuck inside their homes, and get them functional in life again. The gist of ERP is that you learn not to avoid your triggers. If knives and sharp objects trigger the thoughts, you are going to put them in kitchen on purpose, for example. A therapist would walk you through step by step, making sure not to overwhelm you. You have to learn to let the OCD thoughts swirl around your head like a storm. Don’t try to fight them. Don’t try to fix them or argue with them. Just let them be there. You can even say, “Great, I have my harm OCD thoughts coming along for the ride today. Welcome, HOCD. You can stay all day if you want.” You can use humor and acceptance as tools. But don’t try to fight the thoughts! That will only make them worse! Then you practice exposing yourself to triggers, over and over again. A good therapist will help. All the therapists here at NOCD are trained in ERP therapy. They have all their sessions over Zoom, so it’s easy to participate. Don’t worry! There is nothing wrong with you!! You are just a regular OCD-sufferer. It’s horrible, but it’s understandable. People who understand how OCD works know EXACTLY what you are talking about. It’s all going to be okay!!!

Username: Tea and HoneyTea and Honey

Date posted: 31w ago

You might try Nathan Peterson on You Tube. He has great videos about OCD!! Here is one about harm OCD. He has many more videos that relate to HOCD and also all the other themes (because they are all related). https://youtu.be/hwkpqNpHfkE?si=FC-mrvuIjZiSLLo8

Username: RydderRydder

Date posted: 31w ago

Thank you everyone who is reaching out it means a lot, I’m not trying to sound selfish but it just sucks so bad thinking I’m going to slip up and do something you know 😞

Username: Tea and HoneyTea and Honey

Date posted: 31w ago

@Lilpeep12 OCD is horrifying. I feel your pain. I am so so sorry. Please keep posting so that you get support from everyone. The thing is that OCD does not really have power over you. Your brain thinks the OCD has power, but it actually does not. When you do ERP therapy, you learn to take power away from it. Then you can go back to living more the way you want to. Try the video I posted above!! There are a lot of people with HOCD who feel the same way you do. But it’s okay!! It’s just OCD. It does not actually mean anything.

Username: thebubblyonethebubblyone

Date posted: 31w ago

hey rydder, i'm really sorry to hear you're going through such a tough time. it sounds incredibly hard, especially after dealing with the stress from court and now facing these intense intrusive thoughts. you're not alone in this, and reaching out for support is a big step. 🖤 by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck'? when i was in a similar spot, what really helped me was this free AI OCD therapy tool called "unstuck" (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my NOCD therapist recommended. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers personalized step-by-step support when dealing with intrusive thoughts about harm, just like an OCD therapist would. it's designed to help you navigate through those tough moments without feeling overwhelmed. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: RydderRydder

Date posted: 31w ago

@thebubblyone Oh wow!!! I didn’t know about this!! Can I please have more details about this please!! Is it an app!? I’ll do whatever I can to get better!!

Username: thebubblyonethebubblyone

Date posted: 30w ago

@Lilpeep12 - hi! yes, it's an app. basically, it walks you though your current OCD struggles and helps you formulate steps on how to deal with it at the moment. it really helps me when my symptoms flare up.

Username: Taylen

Date posted: 2y ago

Harm OCD

just a couple days ago i experienced this for the first time from watching the new DAHMER series. Im having intrusive images and thoughts of me harming or killing my loved ones and its so scary because i would never do it. It has me questioning if im crazy and im having severe panic attacks over 3 times a day. Im mentally and physically drained, i’ve told my mom about it and we are going to see a therapist tomorrow. Im scared to because idk if they specialize in OCD and if i tell them my thoughts they are gonna put me in the mental hospital or say im crazy and don’t have OCD, can any therapists on here or fellow people with Harm OCD let me know if you think im showing signs of it, i just want it to go away and to be able to sleep at night without severe overthinking.

Username: Kenzie Madison

Date posted: 2y ago

Those with Harm OCD

Hey guys. I’ve been dealing with Harm OCD for around 3 and 1/2 months now, and it’s been extremely difficult to experience. I’ve had OCD my whole life and some of my family members do as well, one of my cousins actually has the same main subtype as me, but he was diagnosed almost a year ago when I didn’t have it myself. I’ve been going to an OCD & Anxiety Treatment Center the past week and I’m really struggling with the exposures we do there, as well as the ones we do at home. I constantly feel like I’m judging myself and I genuinely feel worthless, like I’m a horrible person to have unwanted intrusive thoughts like these. I feel like it’s so difficult to stay mindful and to not judge any of the thoughts that surface. Those with Harm OCD, have any of you here gone from debilitating OCD to living fulfilling lives? If so, what was the process like for you, if you’d like to share? Thanks and I hope you’re all doing well, or are continuing to improve.

Username: Try2023

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD Fighting Back - Harm OCD

I am fairly new to the site, but have already been able to connect with a few of y'all that are struggling with some of the same things as I am. I have had OCD for years, but I never attributed my struggles to OCD, until I started down the path of harm OCD and the intrusive thoughts. Back in the beginning of December, I had a couple of intrusive thoughts come in about "what if" I harmed my husband and then one towards my youngest daughter. I let it get me so overwhelmed that I ended up in urgent care after passing out at my in-laws due to dehydration and lack of sleep. I finally found a therapist who informed me that I had OCD and that I hadn't just suddenly become a psychopath. But, even knowing that it is OCD, there has always been that doubt, as I am sure all of you have experience with. I am working on accepting the thoughts as just thoughts and moving on with my day. I have been working on not ruminating and just telling the thoughts, "maybe, maybe not." The problem is, every day, it is like the OCD is trying to convince me why I might harm my family. Every little thing that irritates me, my brain says, "See..you're getting frustrated with your kids. It makes sense that you would hurt them." On and on it goes and then I get the thought, maybe this is what I want. Maybe I am just an angry person. Maybe I have just finally had enough. I hate the "I" statements because I have never wanted to harm anyone, let alone my babies or my hubby. But, OCD tells me that I do. Has anyone else struggled with this? I have never wanted to harm anyone. I have always tried to protect my babies and do everything I can to protect my marriage as well. I just hate that OCD seems to be trying to convince me that it's not just thoughts, but that I actually want these things.

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