Date posted: 5y

this is gonna be a dumb post. i know that i sometimes obsess about things that terrify me, but i don't know if i'm being reasonable or anxious for no reason. i'm 21, female, and i really enjoy drinking. when i drink, a majority of times i drink too much, and i'm conscious of it, but in my mind i'm like i just wanna have fun and let go? i'm scared i will become an alcoholic. today after i drank and threw up (it wasn't super bad, i have a thing where if my stomach is super full i'll throw up because i hate the feeling. not healthy, i know) so a lot of times when i drink, my stomach is full of liquid, and i think "i gotta get this stuff outta here." so anyways that's what i did tonight, ate a lot and drank a lot (5 shots, maybe that's not a lot to some people and maybe that's way too much to others) and threw it up. my sister said hey, maybe cut down on the drinking so you don't throw up so much. (i do it like 2-3 times a month on the high end, once a month on the low end.) but now i'm thinking like oh my god?? this is probably a sign of drinking too much, when someone close to you comments on it? and if i myself think i drink too much then that's probably also a sign???? but at the same time i don't think i drink a ton compared to others my age at my university, or maybe i do?? and i'm wondering if it's just a college thing like oh i'm 21, i can drink or if it's a serious problems!? i've taken online tests and worst results i've gotten were saying i could have a mild drinking problem, and i'm guessing that's because of binge drinking. alcohol doesn't disrupt my daily life, school, or work, i don't drink the first thing in the morning, i've never blacked out, the worst i've done is thrown up multiple times from over drinking? and i'm super scared i'm an alcoholic or turning into one. i know the simple answer is don't drink. but i like it and i don't think realistically i'll stop

livinlife

Date posted: 5y

It makes sense why you're feeling so anxious, especially after your sister said something. But you need to trust yourself. From what you described, it sounds like a pretty normal college age person (I'm 23, female, went to college too). Honestly in my experience there will be times you go off the deep end but that's what you learn from. I think the important thing is you understand your body and health and learn from the bad times to make better ones. There's nothing wrong with letting go once in a while ?

pureolife

Date posted: 5y

Your experiences with alcohol thus far sound similar to mine and not that different from others I was around in college. That being said, I knew plenty of people who drank less! It sounds like you’re very aware of the symptoms to look out for and red flags that should make you stop in your tracks and reassess. That’s good! But: you are throwing up fairly often and that can’t be fun. You said you had like 5 drinks before you vomited last, so make a deal with yourself at the beginning of the night: I’ll only have 4 at most, and then I will stop for at least an hour and have some water and THEN decide if I want more. I know for me, making a plan at the beginning of the night always makes me more responsible. Just drinking until I feel satisfied is like, well duh, I’ll just want to keep drinking. Especially as I drink more. Decide what kind of night you want beforehand. Stick to it. Do it for a few weeks and then ask yourself: do you feel better about yourself? Less worried? Less ashamed? Are you wasting less time with hangovers and physical effects? My guess is you’ll say: “oh wow yes. I still want to drink and have fun but I enjoy it most when I don’t push it too far.” You’re still figuring it all out and I wouldn’t worry too much but if you’re starting to notice some shame coming from others judgments or your own, slow it down. Just a little.

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