I realised I did a bad thing when I was a kid ... I hurt one of my friend.. I didnt realised then what I did. I am ruminating constantly about it ... I cant get over it and I feel like I dont deserve to get over it. I keep ruminating and ask myself questions ... What should I do?
If OCD is giving you guilt, then most likely it false guilt. Does your friend even remember what you did? Would someone on the outside think that what you did was super bad? Chances are that whatever you did wasn’t that bad, and that you don’t need to worry about it. OCD is a MASTER of producing false guilt just to torture you unnecessarily. But, EVEN IF you truly did something bad to your friend, that’s okay. We are all fragile, frail, flawed human beings who make more mistakes than we can possibly imagine. The ONLY way we can live life is if we live completely in grace and forgiveness—toward ourselves and toward others. I actually have done something bad to a friend before. I shouldn’t have done what I did. She was upset she a while. And you know what? She forgave me, and I forgave myself, and everything is good now. So, in summary, you probably didn’t do anything that bad. The OCD is just trying to mess with you. But EVEN IF you did do something bad, then it’s time to get over that and move on. The greatest friendships are the ones that can survive misunderstandings and hurt.
You should tell the whole story to someone who understands OCD and can help you process through it. Most likely they will tell you to treat your guilt like OCD, which means you recognize that it is all false guilt and doesn’t mean anything. OCD is always giving is false messages!!
Try to sit with the uncertainty, it’s hard but we must train our brains to be ok with it and the intrusive thoughts. There’s nothing we can do to change the past…😊
Thank you!
If u don’t mind me asking what was it? So I know the level of how bad
Well I dont really feel comfortable to tell but it was bad...I wish I could apologise but we arent friends anymore and haven't talked for years..
@Mitu_001 No worries. I agree with @Musicfool
@Emmnala Thank you!
i'm really sorry you're going through this. it sounds incredibly tough to be stuck in a loop of rumination and guilt about the past. it's hard, but you're not alone in feeling this way. 💔 by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called "unstuck?" i've been in your shoes before, and what really helped me was this free ai ocd therapy tool called "unstuck" (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my nocd therapist recommended to me. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it's designed to give personalized step-by-step support when ocd gets tough, just like an ocd therapist would, helping you deal with rumination and guilt. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have qs or just want to talk more! <3
I feel like I'm not progressing anymore, just when I think i think I'm getting better and that my ocd is not as bad anymore it gets bad again. I saw something that triggered a memory of something I did, and I can't seem to let go of it, I been ruminating for hours but my brain won't stop until I "figure" the memory out, until I confess to someone what I did. I feel so guilty and I keep getting thoughts telling me that I don't deserve anything because I'm a terrible person. I don't know what to, I tried accepting the memory and the fact that I can't change the past but it feels like I'm just trying to excuse my actions.
When i was younger in my twenties especially i did some things i really feel guilty of.. I have false memories of things but some things i think happened and they go against my values... I cant stop feeling guilty and thinking im a bad person.. I wish i could turn back time but i cant... I ruminate all the time and i get trigered by a Million things...
I did a bad thing when I was a kid. I feel like I dont deserve to move on and dont deserve to be happy. I keep thinking about the damage that I did and I feel like I deserve to be alone . And that I cant be trusted. Any advice?
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