hi

this is non ocd related but I really need to vent. I talked with this guy for a month and some days, every day, shared a lot of deep convos, i ended up catching feelings even tho I said that I wasn't going to because he's from another country, last sunday, he told me he still loves his ex, and that's okay, but ofc I had hopes and I was heartbroken, I tried to comfort him best as I could, but next day I decided I needed to move on ofc, and told him I catched feelings so it's better if we just talked from time to time, because I really felt like shit, I really liked him and idealized this wonderful story with him. I think he's a great person, and I never actually felt like this for no one, that was nice to know, that I could feel love so deeply, I really wanted it to be him yk, or at least the idea I had of him. I tried not taking it personal, because he's a human too, he makes mistakes, so when he was dry, when he treated me one day like I was his dream girl and next day like he could care less about me, when he hid the fact he was actually waiting for someone else, I didn't take it personal. Yesterday, he asked me what did he do wrong, why did I decide to stop talking to him, I decided to be completely honest and told him how it makes me feel, how I wish I could take my feelings off the table to be his friend (because he really doesn't have friends, he's alone, that's why I don't wanna hurt him), he didn't reply to my text explaining, I thought, that's okay, this is the end, at least I told everything I had to say. but today, he sent me a video about finding his ex on tinder, completely ignoring my text explaining how I feel of yesterday, and when I told him, what do you expect me to say?, he said "idk, I don't have anyone else to share stuff with", all I said was, you're being selfish so I'm gonna be selfish too, rn I'm not available for you, and blocked him, I know I took the right choice, but I feel so bad, I feel like he used me, like he never cared about me, and that sucks, because I really thought we connected, was it just me? he never really felt anything? I'm so sad, I feel humiliated and disappointed, because everytime I did something I thought about how he was going to feel, and he doesn't care at all about making me feel bad

Username: PreenaPreena

Date posted: 31w ago

Hey, Im so sorry you went through that!! I think online relationships are tough :( it is really crazy how people can feel completely differently to how they come across online. I think from this you can take the positive though, that you CAN feel really deeply. I'm sure that you will find someone who makes you feel this way again in real life. It just wasn't the right time :( I hope you can feel better soon!

Username: ap_ap_

Date posted: 31w ago

thank you❤️

Username: JessIsConfusedJessIsConfused

Date posted: 31w ago

I am so sorry that sounds like a horrible situation! And trust me I am a people pleaser so I know that was a hard decision to make but it was the right one. Sometimes the hardest decisions feel horrible rn but you will thank yourself for getting out of a toxic situation in the future. He sounds like as ass LOL. He was completely taking advantage of your emotions so he could get his out. I am proud of you for putting yourself first and standing your ground! He will get over it, he is a big boy and he needs to learn the consequences of being selfish! You sound like a wonderful person and you will find your person one day! Just continue to know your worth! That man was not worth your time or energy. ❤️ sending my love

Username: ap_ap_

Date posted: 31w ago

tysm❤️ I actually texted him today and told him that I hated treating him like that and a lot of nice stuff to say a last goodbye, I feel kinda humiliated again because I pour my heart and he didn't reply and I don't think he will:'( but at least I won't have regrets, it's just so sad thinking about how someone how meant a lot for me can be like this after all we shared, that sucks, I already deleted him in all social media tho so yeah I'm moving on :')

Username: JessIsConfusedJessIsConfused

Date posted: 31w ago

@ap_ Good for you! That took some guts you should be proud of yourself. Yeah sometimes people don’t reach out when we want them too. If he was the guy that you the guy you wanted him to be he would have replied and been respectful. I am sorry it must hurt a lot to reach out like that. You are really smart and brave for realizing you are worth more!

Username: thebubblyonethebubblyone

Date posted: 31w ago

i'm really sorry you're going through this. it sounds incredibly tough, especially after you opened up and were so honest with your feelings. it's clear you cared deeply and it's okay to feel hurt and disappointed by how things turned out. 💔 by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck?' i know this might seem a bit out of left field since you're dealing with heartache right now, but when i was going through a rough patch, not exactly like yours but definitely a time when my emotions were all over the place, this free AI OCD therapy tool called "unstuck" (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my NOCD therapist recommended really helped me. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because even though your current struggle isn't directly related to OCD, the tool provides personalized step-by-step support that can be really comforting when you're dealing with difficult emotions or situations, kind of like having a therapist in your pocket. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: ap_ap_

Date posted: 31w ago

ty!!!

Username: thebubblyonethebubblyone

Date posted: 31w ago

@ap_ - you're welcome!

Username: JennyJ

Date posted: 3y ago

Hello dear friends. I hadn't been on this app for a while, I've been getting by. Today I just need to vent and to feel validated and understood. I have OCD, I consider myself in permanent recovery. It is an everyday job. I am ina relationship with a wonderful guy. I deeply love and care about him, but he doesn't understand anything about OCD. I've explained it to him a million times. I've directed him to online resources. I've talked him through what to do to help me get out of a loop without giving me reassurance. And yet, he never knows what to say or do when an episode appears. It is tiring to pull myself out of the loop and then having yo explain to him what just happened to me, over and over again. I think, in general, he lacks empathy for other people's feelings, but, when it comes to me, I can see that he tries but achieves nothing. I think I don't have ROCD, I have diverse thoughts. But the last few weeks this thought got into my mind: what if he has met someone else and they are texting each other and flirting and he's gonna leave me? (He left his girl to start a new relationship with me). And he are apart due to the covid-19 epidemic, so we didn't see each other almost at all during last year. Of course, I had been able to keep this particular thought to myself, buy yesterday, it just came out of my mind after him not picking up the phone. He was in shock. He reacted defensively (which I completely understand), replied that he had nothing to explain to me as to why he couldn't answer the phone when I called him and that we was surprised that I asked him such a thing (if the reason why he didn't answer me was that he was talking to someone else). I knew it was just an OCD thought of mine, but I just couldn't keep it to myself any longer. Of course, I apologized to him and had to explain it had been an OCD thought. He was supporting and understanding and told me everything was ok and to forget about it. This morning I feel sad that he couldn't recognize this for what it was despite all the explaining I have done. I have dealt with my ocd on my own, despite being in a relationship. I just needed to vent and would like to read your thoughts about this whole thing. Thank you in advance for reading and replying.

Username: myocdstory2

Date posted: 3y ago

Hi... Prepare for a huge txt but I need to vent with someone because I need an opinion of what to do and what to feel. I can't tell if I'm overthinking or not. Or if I'm being a horrible person and I should even feel more guilty. This is about ROCD. I'm gay and I have a gf. We have been dating for almost 5 months and in absolutely in love with her. She's my everything and I'm so afraid to be unfair/cheating. I also have this friend (he's a guy btw) who's overly flirtatious with everyone and he's also super insecure about himself and takes a lot of things people say very personally. I also suffer from a bit of sexual orientation ocd and sometimes I fear that I have a crush on him or something... Even though I don't even want even cuddle him let alone anything else.... We have this joke between us that we are husband and wife (it started before I even knew that my gf confessed feelings for me) and I always feel guilty for not ending the joke with my friend because he'd get depressed and maybe harm himself... And yes! I did tell my gf about this joke and she's OK with it. His nickname is cookie and he started a joke once because I was eating cookies once and he started laughing because... Well... You know what it entails. And sometimes I'm saying I'm eating cookies to make him laugh... But now I regret it because I maybe I'm flirting with him or something. I don't really know what flirting is. I know when I'm flirting with my gf but not if I'm accidentally flirting with others. And flirting for me (yes... This is just my take on it. My choice. But I feel that *me*flirting is cheating and I don't want to do that... I sometimes feel a really tight bond with this friend and it scares me. I try to dismiss my thoughts but they scare me that I may have a crush on him or something... And I don't want that... I just want to love my gf. There was this time... Even before I was dating my gf (but it was after she confessed her feelings for me), I was playing games with cookie (he was watching me), and he said "you are so cute" in a tender voice and I sat there feeling flushed - like those feelings you have when you develop a crush? Idk if I was feeling a crush or not. And I somewhat panicked. I have false memories about that moment. Heck! Maybe I'm just fooling myself that those were false memories. I started feeling worried that I actually was happy with him being this loving to me.... But I do think that I assured myself that i didn't because I don't want to have a romantic relationship him but my memory fails me.... And I have doubts and worries that... I did want to be romantic with him (Im pretty sure I don't but not entirely...) One more event that has been guilt-tripping me is that... Once or twice... I acted or did something "cute" for him to compliment me... I can't remember what! Or maybe I'm having false memories again... And I think it's definitely flirting and therefore cheating! I hate myself... I've been crying and feeling miserable.... And I have been avoiding said friend. I regret so badly ever meeting this friend because I told him that he needs to stop with the lewd jokes about me and he hasn't. I feel like I should break with my gf because she deserves so much better... She's an angel and I don't deserve her. I love her so much... (I don't know if it helps but he's a very loving person and sometimes he says he wants to give me kisses and cuddles and I say "sure" because I don't want to hurt him but I'm always uncomfortable with that idea) Please help me... And please don't hate me... I'm so sorry....

Username: Kara B

Date posted: 1y ago

This doesn't have anything to do with OCD

I’m 14 and I really started liking this guy, so I told him how I felt and asked if he felt the same, he told me that one of his friends asked him to be her boyfriend over the weekend. I'm crying alone in my bathroom rn, I can't go to my mom because she’ll be upset that I put myself out there. I don't have any friends my age that I really click with or feel safe with. I'm feeling so alone, no one really likes me at school and I sit alone at lunch and break. I just want a friend I can really trust and be myself with but I've looked everywhere and I can't find one. I feel so alone

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