Waking up in a panick everyday thinking if this is real life or not, the thoughts never stop, I just want to get better, I had a panick attack yesterday thinking this wasn’t real life, I coped with alcohol for the past 4 years, now when I wake up it’s straight to this isn’t real life and you should just hurt yourself, am I going crazy ?
You aren’t going crazy but I can see how that is difficult. Try to remind yourself to ground in the current moment and feel things around you to ground yourself in the reality of where you are.
@SJS34 I literally touch my face touch my hair, roll around and toss and turn to finally get some clarity, but the thing is alcohol has kept the thoughts quiet until it wears off, and than it’s back to panic mode, it really does suck living like this, I keep thinking I’m going crazy with schizophrenia, but never do
im dealing with the same thing about panicking about if things are real or not its terrifying and im actually lowkey getting delusions but stuff like that can happen due to extreme stress it will go away once your stress is gone you're not crazy, you're just stuck in a cycle of stress and anxiety, which is really hard to break i wish you luck though, you got this
@kiwibasket Idk if it’s drinking or if it’s OCD tho, I wake up every morning with thoughts of panic,suicide,derealism, but once I finally have that first sip of alcohol I feel okay, idk if it’s addiction or OCD
@Lilpeep12 its both most likely, addiction is tough itself but with the added compulsion of needing it or you'll panic is a horrible combination i really think you should look into rehab or just trying to get sober, but i know how hard it is and i dont blame you at all
@kiwibasket I’ve been on Prozac, and i only had 5 beers last night, and I’m still buzzed somehow, I was a rager for a while and it took me a lot to get drunk, but now that I’m on this medication, I can only have 3-4 beers and I’m completely out of it, it might be because I constantly think I’m starting to get alcoholic dementia, because I’m scared of that, scared of derealism and hurting myself or others, those are my 3 compulsions
@Lilpeep12 i dont know much about prozac but alcohol can interfere with any ssri, and can leave you tired, confused, depressed, or anxious have you talked to anyone you know about your issues? you're not alone, people can help you get through this
@kiwibasket I’ve been trying to talk to my gf, and I do have therapy on Tuesday with NOCD, but I have a feeling my gf doesn’t understand, when I explain to her how I’m feeling and when I wake up it’s constant panic, I hate to put the burden on her when I wake her up because she does get frustrated, I think the only reason she gets frustrated is because she constantly tells me I’m fine, but I’m stuck in the derealism, and I think I just need someone who understands how it feels to have this, I don’t want to put a damper on my friends or family anymore, because my whole support system is getting tired of my anxiety’s……… I feel alone
@Lilpeep12 i feel that. for the past week ive done close to nothing but vent to my partner about how scared i am. but try to remember that she may be feeling frustrated because she wants to help you and cant find a way to make you feel safe. im glad you have a support system but its also true that while they can help, they cant fix whats happening. but this doesnt mean you're a burden at all its great that you have a therapy appointment, i hope it can help you but remember you arent alone, i dont know you, but we're both experiencing almost the same thing, as is many other people on this app we're all here for eachother
@kiwibasket It sucks brother 💔😪
Hi. I feel for you. I've struggled with anxiety for a long time. I'm no doctor, but I know my thoughts definitely influence how I feel. Consider a Google search on "cognitive distortions." There are many different types like mind reading (guessing someone is thinking negatively of us as we interact with them), crystal ball thinking (predicting negative outcomes), mental filtering (discounting all our positive qualities and experiences, and focusing on something negative), etc. Just a thought.
hey, i'm really sorry you're going through this. it sounds incredibly tough to start each day feeling so unsettled and scared. 💔 dealing with these thoughts and panic attacks sounds exhausting, especially without the crutch of alcohol you've leaned on before. by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called "unstuck?" when i was in a similar spot, feeling overwhelmed by my thoughts and struggling to find my footing each day, this free AI OCD therapy tool called "unstuck" (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my NOCD therapist recommended really made a difference for me. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers personalized step-by-step support when OCD gets tough, just like an OCD therapist would. it's designed to help you tackle those moments of doubt and panic by guiding you through coping mechanisms that are tailored to your specific situation. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3
Why does life sometimes not seem real? Like I’m in a dream or something? Like I was thinking if I were arrested it wouldn’t matter cause life isn’t real. I know it is but it just feels like that. Is this me going crazy or??
I woke up today terrified cause I didn’t feel connected to my body. I looked in the mirror and thought I was watching someone else and that was scary. Feeling depersonalized fueled my intrusive thoughts. Like “what if I’m going crazy”, “what if I have shifted personalities” or “what if I’m bipolar.” The fear of turning crazy also fueled the intrusive thoughts of me acting mentally crazed or like a child. These intrusive thoughts also tainted me into believing that everything I did was something a mentally crazed person would do. Now I have become more hyper aware of how I feel when I do simple things. This also fueled my OCD subtypes like harm/ suicidal because I think that if I’m not connected to my body then I have no control or might do irrational things. This feeling of not being connected to yourself is really scary and I hate the feeling. How do I get connected with myself again.
At this point I’m pretty sure I’m psychotic. I have intrusive thoughts all day long of me doing a bunch of things that I never and will never do. Images of me poking out my own eyes in all sorts of other horrific things that will have to do with self mutilation. These images have been haunting me for two years with the persisting fear that I will act out on these things one day despite me never wanting to do so. Now on top of these thoughts I am dealing with something else. I keep thinking about the fact that there’s no escape from life other than death and it makes me feel scared and trapped. I can’t stop thinking about this that there’s no escape. It’s scaring me. I want to live I have no desire to die but once I get the intrusive thought about not being able to escape this life is scaring me. I believe I’m going through depersonalization because nothing feels right my surroundings feel unfamiliar I feel unfamiliar. I feel like an alien in a place that seems unknown to me. This all started after I had a panic attack in the shower three weeks ago over my intrusive harm thoughts and in the moment I actually thought that my life was over and that I was about to act out on it but of course I didn’t because it’s just a thought and an obsessive fear. Something I would never do but it felt so real in that momentI almost passed out from the fear. The day after that I felt like nothing was real and I’m still in depersonalization and having panic attacks on the regular but today I got that thought about not being able to escape life and how we’re basically all trapped here. I can’t stop thinking it and it’s making me feel sick. Maybe if I Felt more connected to myself and my surroundings stuff like this wouldn’t bother me but that panic attack destroyed me. Does this sound like OCD or something else?I was completely normal and fine three weeks ago yes I had my intrusive thoughts but they weren’t scaring me or controlling me like they are now.
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