POCD !! pls read

hi everyone! i struggle really badly with pocd. today ive been trying to not avoid places where i know there will be children and watch harmless videos that have come on my feed on social media instead of scrolling straight past them and it has helped a bit. but i keep getting awful thoughts of like thinking i like these thoughts and i do actually want these thoughts and that i really am a p*dophile and i feel like it’s setting me back but i know i have to face that and just carry on. i also keep having doubts of whether this really is ocd and i really am an awful person. i hate it so so much and i keep having panic attacks which make me overwhelmed and i just see no way out. is this normal? if anyone could share their experiences or just some advice it would be very much appreciated!

Username: Forever hopeful7Forever hope...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 26w ago

Something that has helped me through this is to stop caring. It’s so much easier said than done but it’s helped. Also I tend to laugh at my mind now. Like if something pops up I’ll laugh about it whether itself myself or ocd just to show it I’m in control

Username: anony_anony_

Date posted: 26w ago

@Forever hopeful7 i like that idea! i’ve been trying to put a bit of humour in the matter but that’s when the thoughts of “ im accepting these thoughts does that mean its true “ or “ what if i actually am a bad person “ it’s awful!

Username: thebubblyonethebubblyone

Date posted: 26w ago

hey, i really feel for you dealing with pocd, it sounds incredibly tough. 💔 it's brave of you to face your fears head-on by not avoiding places with children and trying to watch videos. your effort to push through, even when your thoughts are super scary and the doubts creep in, shows a lot of strength. by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called "unstuck?" when i was in a similar spot, what really helped me was this free AI OCD therapy tool called "unstuck" (unstuckmyocd.com/try) that my NOCD therapist recommended. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it's designed to give personalized step-by-step support when OCD gets tough, much like an OCD therapist would. it could be a game-changer in dealing with those intrusive thoughts and the overwhelming feelings they bring, by guiding you through strategies to handle them. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: anony_anony_

Date posted: 26w ago

@thebubblyone omg thank you so much i will definitely try that! i just hate it so so much because i keep asking myself if it really is my ocd or if i really am an awful person. but i just keep reminding myself if i was an awful person i wouldnt be going through all of these negative emotions and avoiding situations where there are children. thank you again this is so so kind of you 💞💞

Username: takingmylifebacktakingmylife...

Date posted: 26w ago

I don’t struggle with this specific theme but it’s so interesting that I feel the same way with my theme. Like it’s not ocd and I’m just what I’m afraid of. Although we have different themes it doesn’t really matter bc OCD is OCD. Just know you are not alone

Username: anony_anony_

Date posted: 26w ago

@takingmylifeback thank you ❤️ i hope you overcome whatever your theme is as well

Username: h.1

Date posted: 5y ago

Someone please read this. I’m suffering a lot with pocd. It is the worst thing I have ever experienced. It truly makes me feel evil and disgusting and I’ve never hated myself more. The worst part is I have a younger sister who I absolutely adore obviously but now I’m afraid to be around any younger kids even though I know they’re just scary thoughts. I can’t help but think that I should stay away from them even if I have just had these thoughts cross my mind. I feel like this feeling is never going to go away and it’s ruining my life I really don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I can’t live with this ‘secret’ because I feel like I’m hiding an evil trait. And I can’t stress enough how much I know that they’re not my true thoughts and of course I think it is disgusting and the most vile thing I could think of. And I think that’s why it distresses me so much, because it’s my worst nightmare. But never the less the thoughts are still haunting me no matter what. I really need help because I can’t imagine living with this forever but I can never see it fully going away. When I think about the future even, I feel like I can’t live the life I want because all I’ve ever been sure of is that I want to be a mum and now I feel like I cannot be. What can I do, I feel so helpless and out of control of my own mind.

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Username: .fx.nxy.

Date posted: 1y ago

POCD anxiety

contains tw// p-ocd, beatstiality, self harm mentioned briefly ok so to start this i really enjoy child psychology, working with kids, etc. I’m a camp councilor in the summer at two different camps and a babysitter in the winter. I’m the youngest so no younger siblings but i know if i did i would 100% take care of them just because of my love of taking care of kids. I’ve always had p-ocd and struggled with it but it’s only gotten worse within the last year, starting with my psychiatrist saying i didn’t have ocd and casing a panic attack in my partial hospitalization program (a mental hospital.) I get pretty horrible thoughts about pocd and children and im currently having a small-medium anxiety attack about it. i have never hurt a child to but my brain keeps repeating the fact that “P3dos work in places where they have access to childern” at times when i’m activity working with kids it will happen and i ignore it but right now it feels stuck to me. I can’t help but understand that that is a fact and i’m more likely to be a p3do because of the fact i’m a camp councilor. i also have some pretty bad ocd about beastiality and i’m also panicking about that. i have some memories of me being 7ish and doing some questionable things regarding this. ( i know is (in theory) normal for kids that age due to differnt developmental stages and due to the fact that i was groomed as a kid) but the memories play in my head repeatedly and make me really upset. i start gagging and i can’t look at my pets anymore without wanting to hurt myself or throw up. (it’s mostly bad right now, not usually) I always try and distract myself and it usally helps but it’s not right now. i have ocd but every time i think about it i can’t help but question weather or not i’m actually a p3do/like animals. It’s gotten to the point where i start asking people to send me to jail but im staring to think that was a good idea given how terrible my thoughts are. i also have trouble talking to my friends about it because i never know if they will ss my texts and spread that i’m a p3do (they won’t but i get nervous) anyway please give advice/help with any of these issues if you can

Username: iamtryingmybest

Date posted: 45w ago

i need help with pocd (pure o)

hey its been a while since ive last been on this app. tbh my health ocd has gotten a lot better since the last few posts (yay to that!!) but ive been struggling soo much with pocd. i used to struggle w/ intrusive, obsessive thoughts like these before but they werent common and they were bearable. not anymore apparently. im so scared and disgusted at even the idea of having these thoughts, i know i would never actually do something to anyone but i keep on ruminating and its been taking me into mental crisis. anyone that could help? ive been off therapy for 2 months so im thinking that maybe that caused the obsessions to get worse but idrk im 17, about to turn 18 this year. i feel gross

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