I don’t know what to do

You have to resist the urge, even if it makes you very anxious. I can't do it either, not yet, but it's what we have to do. Not reacting ti the thought helps a lot, I've been able to do it a couple times and it is effective, at least to keep going with your day!

let the thought come and sit in the physical sensation, it’s something that is integral to your healing process! something that really helped me comprehend how to and what that means, along with accepting resistance is actually going back to my childhood and seeing how it affected me back then! i realized i had sooo so much ocd subtypes and magical thinking happening because i was so alone! now that im in a different place i think of this healing as a bridge between then and who im supposed to be! our sickness is so hard so be patient, its still uncomfortable for me as well!

you’re not alone. you have to push yourself and resist the compulsion because it is truly the only way to get better. as you push yourself more and more, that anxiety will begin to dissipate :)