- Username
- ccsantiago
- Date posted
- 5y ago
So I should just let it happen? And thank you for responding. This platform has really been helping me. Helping me realize that I'm not the monster that I think I am because of my thoughts. I would never act upon anything sexual with a child. It's wrong. But I have also read that even pedophiles sometimes don't act upon their desires for children. And that discourages me.
Thank you both I really hope that I didn't trigger any of you. I just feel like I'm in a state of shock after just realizing this about myself . But I really do appreciate you guys. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You guys are great.
@ccsantiago always rooting for you !! ❤️ so glad I can be here to help. I totally understand how confusing , numbing , and scary this can be.
Bob I'm not sure if you're aware but it is nearly impossible to simply just ignore groinal responses. Telling someone to ignore anything alone is not enough to help but I do see that you are trying to help.
You have recovered from having OCD with groinal response issues?
In order for ignoring something to work you can't respond with any mental compulsions which is extraordinarly hard.
Can you private message on here?
The reason why you’re getting the tingling feeling around him is because your mind knows that you fear being attracted to him , and that you do not at all want that response , so you’re putting pressure on yourself which causes them. Your brain is very powerful and intricate , but it isn’t always accurate or even close to accurate when it sends signals. Anything could really trigger a signal. For example , how do you know it’s genuine arousal ?? ( not giving you reassurance or any answers by saying this :) ) what if it’s anxiety that’s causing it , which is a major cause for groinal sensations ? What if it’s the strong feeling of love or appreciation you have for him ? What if it’s from excitement from seeing him , which is normal ? The point is you don’t know , so there’s no reason to attach something to the sensation when it doesn’t deserve one , it’s just a physical sensation after all. It’s us as people that make them out to mean something or tell us something when that’s unfair to us and unfair to reality
I really appreciate all of your help and information. I will give this a try. Is it normal that I look at some boys now to see if I really am attracted? Nothing has happened I just don't know if that's weired or not.
I don't get aroused but I don't spend to much time looking because that for me is just weird.
Ok. I'm not attracted to boys right? I mean I never have bee n i don't want to be with underage boys. But as of recently it's like I've gone numb. I've lost all attraction to men. Even my fiance. Is that normal?
@ccsantiago exactly just let it happen :) I know it feels wrong and scary but it’s okay to let it happen since it’s just a sensation with no meaning. I’m so glad this forum has been helping you out , it definitely has a lot of great and compassionate people ! Whether they do or don’t act on them doesn’t have to define who you are or the kind of interpretation you give your fears , thoughts and actions ! It’s tempting to compare our situations to others but this is just reinforcing the idea that our fears our stronger than us and need to be worked out. This is an illusion but a very powerful one
I need your help I really need your help right now. I was masturbating because I wanted to make sure that I get turned on from my boyfriends image but there was always thoughts about children coming up, not even specific images but just the thought of the word. I immediately stopped and thought “No I don’t want to think of this” and after it was gone I kept imagining my boyfriend. Then another thought came up. I did the same as before. This happened a couple of times during masturbation but I always tried to focus on the thought of my boyfriend. Right now I am anxious and afraid because I didn’t stop masturbating completely. I feel like those thoughts could have influenced me during the masturbation
I literally cannot stop picturing disgusting sexual shit to check and test for arousal and I see that my groin gets movements and growth. That shouldnt happen. If I wasnt a pedophile then that shouldnt be happening to why is it happening...Like someone please help me, I can't believe this is happening to me
OK! I am going through the weirdest thought process and it’s kinda TMI but I just don’t know who else to talk to. So I’ve been dating this guy for a while and he is sO goofy. He sent me a snap video of him in a bath and he was trying to make me laughing peeing in the video too. And it was cute seeing him in a bath because he’s a grown man in a little bath all by himself I thought it was cute. But when he pee’d it reminded me of my nephew. Sometimes when I take my baby nephew to the potty I have to carry him to pee because he’s so tiny and when he finishes it’s this funny little trickling noise. And that’s the noise my bf made in the video. So when that came in my mind I had this idea that I’m like a pedophile or into children because I thought... Like I don’t even know I can’t even explain it. Like when my bf sent me that video I didn’t think of it sexually or turned on by it. I genuinely just thought it was adorable that he was in a bath like a little boy. And then it made me panic like do I think it’s cute because I’m into children?! I don’t really know what to do. I’ve always suffered from POCD but I’m really scared about this...
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