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Terrible urges
I'm struggling really badly with terrible thoughts and urges. I feel I'm going crazy. Im a kind person and I can't cope with it.
I'm struggling really badly with terrible thoughts and urges. I feel I'm going crazy. Im a kind person and I can't cope with it.
OCD rears it's ugly head all the time. What I do is I try and distract myself to pencil doodle on a pad and the next thing I know I've made art. I have this huge poster paper taped on my wall, everyone else thinks it's my art. Lol Little do they know it's a distraction and they don't have to know. I get so many compliments.
I'm sorry you're going through this. Most of us have been there. Basically, you are suffering from the "what-ifs," and their siblings, the "would I, could I, am I, do I, oh no!" thoughts. One thing you can do is stay in the present: what am I doing, or not doing NOW? What am I plotting or not plotting NOW? Do I have a choice? This helps to neutralize the What-ifs, etc. If you haven't already done so, please consider getting into therapy with a TRAINED OCD, therapist who uses ERP therapy. It can be a reall game-changer. You can find a lot of very good ones through NOCD, or you can access the International OCD Foundation's website. IOCDF has a list of approved therapists based on geography. Hope this helps. Hang in there. Just remember that a thought is a thought is a thought, not a threat or an action, just a thought. An intrusive thought is no more of a threat than a thought about ordering a pizza.
I have all kinds of thoughts that arenβt me it feels like someone is talking to me telling me evil things about people or to do evil things ππππ I canβt do this anymore
Just trying to accept the uncertainty and move on.... I don't want to be bad.... I want to be a good person.... But I feel like a bad person sometimes I get horribly disgusting thoughts when I'm angry and think the most horrendous things
I get these violent urges thats started randomly and now i feel like ill hurt someone it feels impossible to control almost gets me shaking
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