Does anyone else find themselves identifying with their intrusive thoughts? Like you believe that it’s really you and not some mental illness ? It feels like it really is me cause it shouldn’t feel so NORMALIZED in my own mind. How do I reverse this?
yes, this is so scary! But don't think you're the only one, seriously. I answered something about this just this week, we are not the only ones who go through this. The thing is, we think so many negative things so many times a day, that sometimes we're so exhausted that it's just like, "OK, more of that again..." and then another intrusive thought comes along and: "So you're used to the point of not caring and feeling good? That's kind of weird, maybe now you've admitted it, that's what you are, you're bad." It's just bizarre because when I engage the intrusive thought I feel really bad and anxious, but when I say "ok" and move on, thinking it's just going to be one more, I also feel bad for not paying attention and thinking I agree with the thought.
Yep, all the time 😢
I’m literally believing it so much and I keep feeling like I like it and want it to the point I don’t know what is the truth it just feels real
I know OCD is hard I have harm OCD I used to  be very afraid of my thoughts of hurting my family and it made me feel like a horrible monster. I was able to overcome my OCD but you have to not fight your OCD and not do any compulsion. You have to learn to just be OK with it. I highly recommend you look up response exposure that’s pretty much what you have to do to not have a OCD affect you anymore. you kinda have to learn to be OK with the OCD so that it doesn’t bother you anymore. I still have the graphic thoughts, but I’m able to not be bothered by them and they just kind exist. Worrying about if your OCD is OCD or not or truly, you is definitely a common compulsion of pure ocd. I’ve definitely had that one in the past.
Yes , I also worry who id be if I didn't have the thoughts
Does anyone especially with harm ocd feel like they are their thoughts and want to do these things? Like no matter how hard I try and even during my therapy session I get the constant, “what if this isn’t OCD?”, “you like these thoughts”, “your a bad person”, “your going to act on these thoughts.” It gotten to the point where it feels like I’m actually this person and that I have changed into an evil person and it’s so scary cause it’s gotten to the point where it feels like I’m never going to get my life back and that’s saddening. I’ve never had a violent history never hurt anyone or anything but I don’t know why it feels like I am.
So I’m going to college soon and every time I think about it, I feel like the odd one out because of my intrusive thoughts. Like I literally feel like an “intruder” going to school because of how my thoughts make me feel. This is also every time I talk to my friends, my brain is like “your friends are talking to a future criminal”. I just feel like I don’t deserve to be there and have good memories and like my thoughts are inevitable. I feel like a completely different person from who I was before June. Of course I have had these thoughts throughout my life, but nothing that stuck longer than a week or two. It’s so weird how one day your perfectly happy and the other you feel like a completely different person. Furthermore, while these thoughts don’t make me happy and provide anxiety, those feelings feel so forced sometimes. Also I’m sure a lot of us do this, but when I think of the thought and want to feel disgust (as one does), it feels like I’m forcing that feeling. During the beginning of June I was nauseated by these thoughts and crying most days, now they just feel annoying more than anything because there’s nothing I can really do to provide relief. I constantly am questioning whether this is me or not and at this point I don’t even know. I feel like the thoughts have gradually went from making me want to vomit to questioning whether I would actually do it. Anyone else?
ocd is literally like you are getting possessed. i feel like theres two versions of me, ocd me and regular me. and ofc the ocd me is the version who is brought out more. is it normal for ocd to trick you into thinking you want to do your intrusive thoughts and that you don’t want help or want to seek therapy for it? Its almost like im trying to convince myself that i am this horrible person. every “good” thing i do an intrusive thought comes in that i did that good thing for myself, and everything i do is either manipulation or to give myself something in the end and never out of goodness in my heart. its like the ocd me is completely trying to takeover and mold me into this horrible bad person and theres nothing i can do to stop it.
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