Because of my other ocd things i haven’t been able to practice my sport-acrobatics in 3 months. i also have ocd and perfectionism related to acro. i’m still not even allowed to practice it until i get my other ocds under control. im sobbing and feeling incredibly sad and guilty right now.I have such a strong urge to just go outside and do it for hours like i used to because nobody can stop me then. can someone please help me
For context i am extremely worried i lost all my flexibility and tricks after not practicing for months due to other ocd compulsions that have flared up in the past 3 months. i feel horrible not doing acro, and especially because i know i probably lost all my flexibility and tricks
And I can’t just restart acro because acro itself used to be a huge ocd and perfectionism thing where i used to practice hours a day without eating, doing hw, etc, and i would get incredibly upset if i messed up a trick
I'm so sorry i am the same way with my hobbies. I am am extreme perfectionist. Its always a balancing act trying to not be that way but what helped me is to purposefully make a mistake, over and over. It sucks that you have to give up something you love just because of ocd. I hope you get through this
@charissepisces2021 should i wait until i’m allowrd to do it or just do it?
@charissepisces2021 after not doing it for 3 months, what’s the first step i can take
@Anonymous7779 Im not sure what your situation is, why are you not allowed to do it?
@charissepisces2021 bc my parents know i can’t stop and that it’s triggering for my ocd
Is your dream to be in the Olympics? If so, find a way to ease back in and not give up. If this is just a fun hobby you love, maybe you need to sacrifice it for something healthier for you. ERP therapy can help, have you talked with a therapist on NOCD yet? I think they could probably advise you best. Everything happens for a reason, I believe. If you have to temporarily close the door on acro and replace your healthy/fun routines with something else, then maybe it’s a sign from the universe to focus on those things for now. I think it would be helpful for the thread if you shared your goals/dreams and why this is important to you (if you’re comfortable). I’ve quit things I was passionate about (like competitive gaming), and when you take even 2 days off it takes almost the exact amount of time to get back to where you were (I.e. take 30 days off it takes 30 days just to get back to your original skills). Gaming is not as healthy as physical sports, but it sounds like this physical sport is not healthy for you until you deal with the perfectionism. addressing the root cause is more important and will open and clear your mind even more than the compulsion of doing acrobatics (most likely). I hope this helps!
@Anonymous It’s important to me because i’m self taught in it, and i’ve learned so many variations that would greatly upset me if i lost them. wait so since i haven’t done it in 3 months, would it take that long to get back to it? i don’t plan on being in the olympics, but just continuing it on the side of my job when i finish college and get one. my dreams are to advance in my tricks and maintain my current flexibility and become more flexible. thanks for your response.
@Anonymous its just that i’ve learned so much and gotten so flexible over the past 2 years, and i feel like it’s gone bc of how much time i took away from it. do u think i would’ve lost the tricks i learned (not tryna ask reassurance but just trying to get a rational opinion about how long it takes to lose acro tricks). i’ve also partially been avoiding it bc ik it can cause horrible compulsions at times
@Anonymous7779 No I don’t think you lost tricks. I was giving an example of competitive video games, that’s a different situation. Your body has the mental and muscle memory, this is why people can do advance skateboarding tricks still after not riding a skateboard for 20 years. I know you love doing it, but find a way for it to be healthy for you before re-engaging. Health should be your number 1 concern, then happiness (some might disagree with this). But in your case I would just say “don’t rush to be perfect, because perfection doesn’t actually exist”. You are not a computer program, you are a human, with flaws, just like all of us. It is important to have goals, but EVERYONE has set backs, some more than others. It’s key 🔑 you remember that overcoming and LEARNING from your setbacks gets further than doing everything “perfectly”. <— this last statement cannot be argued
@Anonymous But i know i lost flexibility for sure, because i haven’t done any back stretches in months. I really want to get back into it, but i’m not sure how when i could have a compulsion. some days it turns into a compulsion, but other days, i get lucky and it doesn’t.
@Anonymous i was planning on trying tonight to do back stretching but now i’m nervous i’m gunnu like explode if i feel the slightest feeling i lost flexibility or that my foot moved or my arm wasn’t straight or my feet aren’t parallel so idkkk but i rlly wanna maintain and gain back flexibility
I had to cancel my therapy because it was no longer available with my insurance. And I just kind of feel hopeless with OCD. Even when I was doing therapy, I think my OCD started getting too complicated for my therapist and she didn’t even know what to do. My fears are so complex it’s crazy. So my big fear is my OCD being bad and being super depressed again like I was a few months ago in high school. I attended a public highschool for a semester and started the worst flare up I’ve ever had. I was harshly bullied for no reason whatsoever, and not accepted by anyone. I am an athletic kid who usually keeps to himself so I didn’t understand why people targeted me, especially when I wanted nothing to do with them. From August to now ( March) I CANNOT grasp hold of my OCD. I am very hard on myself about it. Going into dangers anytime I see one so I can expose myself. But constantly obsessing about if I’m doing enough for my OCD. And comparing myself to how I use to be, before the flare ups. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep I’m obsessing about my OCD and if it’s bad and comparing. Another HUGE fear of mine is being treated differently because I have OCD. So being bullied for so long I always assumed it was because I was shy and didn’t want to stand up for myself - due to my OCD- so I blamed myself for everything that continued to happen, . from people bullying me in the past . The people at that highschool were downright crazy. Even the teachers and coaches had major issues and I’m so glad to be out of there, but I still obsess the same everyday and hold so much resentment for that school and when I try to let it go, I just feel more passive pain and obsess even more about it weather my ocd is okay or not. I feel mentally sick. Please someone give me some advice for my fears, because I feel like I’m doing everything in my power to expose myself to everything but nothings working.
My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.
i feel the need to say sorry because i’m posting yet again. i’m having a REALLY DIFFICULT episode of ocd that i haven’t had for a few months now. i experience contamination ocd everyday and have constant anxiety attacks, however because that’s so normal to me and doesn’t affect anyone but myself, it doesn’t affect me in the same way harm ocd does. i haven’t had to deal with really bad harm ocd thoughts for a good bit now so i’m struggling so bad right now. if anyone has seen my previous posts (which i’m sure you have), this came about over a small change that happened a couple weeks ago. it’s now blossoming into a full episode. it’s making me feel paralyzed and not want to do anything, but i know in the past i had to force myself to distract myself by actually doing things. i’m supposed to hang out with my friend tomorrow, but i’m so close to cancelling because i feel like i can’t do it. my physical symptoms are also worse than what i feel like i’m used to and it’s terrifying me into thinking i’m gonna get sick. i just don’t know how to get through it. it feels like impending doom and constant panic. i just want to feel like myself again and happy
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