I just can't anymore

I feel like I've worn out all my typical coping habits. Now I'm just drained. So much is happening in my life around me that I feel like I'm crumbling and all the bad things makes my OCD go rampid. I have such a tendency to blame everything on myself especially due to my ocd. I just feel like I'm at the end of my ropes. I get like this sometimes but it's usually one really big thing, that makes me feel like my world is ending and I can't do it anymore. But now its many many big things and I feel ill. I can't process it all at once yet I can't process it one by one because the other issues are pressing on me. None of these things are fixable yet they're also things you can't just 'get over'. It's rough and I'm tired mentally which has caused me to slow down and become lazy, which just makes me feel worse. I've lost all motivation and the only reason I'm keeping it together is for my spouse. I try to lean on him but I just end up feeling like a burden and an annoyance to everyone in my life. I feel like my head is going to explode

Yeah, it feels like all my outlets are just burnt out as well. Something is in the air and I just want to breathe

@Bumblehum - I have pocd which is a nightmare, I have kids and everything triggers me I haven't had a good day in a long time. I can't enjoy anything. I'm really hard on myself. We can do this though if you believe I believe

@Jesse1982 We can do this it all just takes time. My grandfather just passed away, I had to get pre cancer removed recent and my mum just got a cancer diagnosis, I can't help but feel it's my fault even though obviously it's not. All the tiny things pile up too 🥲 I wish you the best and to find a peaceful mind and happy days ahead.