My hocd revolves around porn. As I've seen same sex porn before, and have been aroused by it, it works as a proof to my hocd. It's it main weapon. It's awful that I get this urge to watch it, it's as if I HAVE to do it, or it won't leave me alone. I feel gross, I'm never mentally turned on, but my body responds to it. I'm terrified that I'm sexually attracted to women, even if I don't want to. I don't want to be with them, I feel awful. As I'm doing in my recent posts, I'll ask you to be mindful of your answer. This is hocd, I hope so, and I'm already triggered enough.

I don't know if this reassurance, but I read multiple studies that said all women (with a few exceptions) respond with arousal to viewing any sexual stimuli whether that's straight porn, gay porn (including lesbian) or even bonobo apes and the vast majority of women in these studies identified as being heterosexual.

While on the other hand men tend to just react to the stimuli within their sexual orientation again with a few exceptions.

I struggle with this too i look at women on pictures to see if i feel anything but nothing and keep seeking reassurance from myself and family/friend members it drives me insane. I know who ive wanted to be with my whole life. Im into men 100 percent. Ive struggled with porn since i was young and it had affected me. Have u tried nofap. Both men and women can do this.

I do not at all mean to give you reassurance , but it’s important that you understand that there is zero correlation between arousal and porn. Getting aroused by porn is very normal , and you don’t have to like it to get aroused. Humans are sexual so anything can get you going lmfaooo. The thing is , even though it feels like you have to , you don’t have to do it. The more time you spend accepting how you feel without doing the compulsions , the less dependence you will have on them !! The best thing you could do is to become okay with the possibility of not being straight , that way there is no longer anything to fear and you won’t have constant battles with questions anymore

I once forgot about these thoughts for one year and never came back in my mind now they have again but u do need to stop reassuring because it will make u feel sick. Porn has definitely warped my brain and im doin nofap and believe me it does exist. I have had intrusive sexual thoughts when i was young and they deminished because i knew that wasnt me.

Thank you all so so so much. You have no idea how much this helped me. I'm trying to avoid posting too much and keeping things mostly to myself but sometimes I just need to get some stuff out of my chest. I'm trying to not give this meaning. I'll try to stay away from porn from now on, it's destroying my life.

Always post on here when you need the support and advice , we got you covered :) I know it’s tempting to keep to yourself but help is what we’re here for , and there’s nothing we haven’t heard before lmao ;) keep up the good work !!