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- 1y
Anyone experience guilt over dressing up or makeup
Please share thank u
Please share thank u
i do, i feel stupid and i feel guilty and it also comes with a lot of shame as it feels like i don’t deserve it and it feels like im hiding who i “truly” am like my intrusive thoughts and things, if that makes sense
@Elicambel Omg me too!
@Anonymous243 your not alone that’s for sure :)
Yes. I used to feel guilty for wanting to have long hair that’s why I always cut it to shoulder‘s length (so I don’t seduce men [OCD thought]). I felt guilty when I wore a dress. I felt guilty when I smiled at a man. Until someone told me it’s OCD.
@elliss2 How did u get better?
@Anonymous Hm, the key was that someone told me for the first time about the differences that our thoughts are not who we are etc. I went to a psychotherapist for the first time and found out not all thoughts are true And then I started therapy and did ERP etc. that helped👍
i do feel guilty about dressing up, i don’t know it makes me feel like i’m doing “too much.” it’s something i enjoy doing bc i love expressing myself but always get these thoughts someone will make fun of me or i will look totally stupid in front of everyone else it’s so lame
So i bought this product last year. The total for all the purchases was 68 dollars. It was a combination of 10 dollar products, 6 of them. Well they forgot one product and wouldn’t send me it/ it took awhile for them to respond and i got annoyed by that. I also thought they sent me expired products but it turns out that wasnt the case. Anyways i emailed about this gave up on trying to find a resolution and asked my bank to reverse the charge. Then i ended up feeling guilty because i found out the products WERENT expired (my OCD was going off thinking they were tampered old, or expired, but after some sleuthing i found out that wasnt the case. They just missed an item. So then i felt too guilty to use any of it. I thought of giving it away at some point and repurchasing or purchasing some similar but different to make up for it. Writing it feels a bit illogical now but… im wondering what to do. Because reversing that bank charge on all of those items seems ridiculous/wrong for only one item but it happened already, a year ago. I think my magical ocd was telling me it was wrong to use and I would taint/ negatively impact anything i used it with because of what i did… or is it guilt because i really “stole” more than they “stole” from me?
This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
I’ve been feeling the compulsion of confession again. I hate confessing things to my boyfriend I don’t want him to carry the burden. I’d rather hurt than him hurt. But I feel I did something wrong and he needs to know. Like I need to be punished or something. I may be over reacting to it but I just feel guilty and I had a panic attack when I woke up yesterday. I would never cheat on him. Just making guys laugh I feel like I am doing him wrong or flirting. And then when I notice it I just feel awful. I just want to be liked and noticed not romantically but just as a human. I don’t know why I act like this and feel the need to tell him as if I slept with someone. I think it’s attacking my biggest fear which is losing him. Does anyone have experience with this?
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